I have not seen past season 1 of this show yet, but I’m loving it so far! This guy has been one of my favorites but he’s been absent for like 6 or something episodes lately doggirl-tears

miscellaneous plot commentary for where I'm at in the show

what the FUCK is Mollari up to this dude is bordering on ordering literal genocide??

what is Delenn transing into?? a guy maybe??? bridget-pride

where the HELL is Sinclair I want him back. His replacement kinds sucks lmao

Garibaldi might be the straightest man alive and I mean that in the most derogatory way imaginable

I wish this show was gayer

I fucking love the technomages so goddamn much oh my god. They’re soooooo goofy and I need more of them. I was close to dedicating this mega to my love for that one episode where they’re introduced

Anyway this show is fun and cool and good but could be gayer and transer lea-sad

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  • gaystyleJoker [she/her]@hexbear.netMEnglish
    2·
    24 days ago

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  • meler [she/her, pup/pup's]@hexbear.netOPEnglish
    29·
    28 days ago
    regarding the Lilly Bushnell post

    I’m pretty sure that if I didn’t grow into being trans spending a lot of time reading through this mega every day I would have ended up with exactly the kind of internalized trans-misogyny that would have had me agreeing with the he/hims in that thread. I guess I’m just feeling thankful for you all again. I feel like I am who I am today in part because of the posting I get to read from you all. I just love ya’ll is all I suppose

    • OffSeasonPrincess [she/her]@hexbear.netEnglish
      21·
      28 days ago
      spoiler

      Can relate to that heavily. Hexbear/this mega specifically wasnt that formative for me, but in general im grateful to all transfeminists whove helped me climb out from the pit of transmisogyny and self hatred. I doubt im even all the way out yet but i can at least see the light at the top. I love everyone who rly values trans girls. Hugs kisses idk (platonic)

    • Muinteoir_Saoirse [she/her]@hexbear.netEnglish
      26·
      29 days ago

      You can see how viscerally uncomfortable it makes some guys feel to consider that their own masculinity may be questioned, especially in death. They project this onto others, and never introspect enough to think how it is a constant reality for transfems that our femininity is not only guaranteed to be questioned, but overwhelmingly denied, in life and especially in death.

      • Muinteoir_Saoirse [she/her]@hexbear.netEnglish
        24·
        29 days ago

        They’re more than happen to argue that it’s imperative to assume cis unless proven trans, without considering the implications of such a cis-centric view, and how it contributes to a society in which trans people aren’t safe to leave behind the kind of evidence that would satisfy their morbid refusal to explore the possibility that cis isn’t default, it’s a cultural imposition.

      • MusicOwl [comrade/them, sie/hir]@hexbear.netMEnglish
        5·
        27 days ago

        What’s the problem with Feinberg? Much of her work was quite welcoming and affirming to finding my butchness as a transfem reading thru it. She certainly has some femmephobia present in her work, but trans liberation is also about embracing all identities, and has been good a primer for many as their into to queer theory.

  • inTheShadowOf [she/her]@hexbear.netEnglish
    27·
    29 days ago

    I finally had my consult today! It’s been a long time since the previous surgeon bailed and tbh I haven’t always been sure I’d make it long enough to try again.

    Discussion of planning surgery, regret, body trauma

    The consult went just over two hours and there were some difficult topics I had to walk her through. I’m good at telling a summary of my story without issue, but inevitably there’s some piece that catches me off guard when I really have to get into it. It’s embarrassing crying in front of strangers. Anyway, I made it through that and the exam of the [surgical area] without major issues.

    The good news is she seems much more open to working with unknowns. Given that I’m the first person to pursue phalloplasty after vaginoplasty at that hospital’s practice (many such cases), a surgeon needs to be willing to take a bit of a leap with me. Of course, that involves ompromises on both parts.

    I was happy that my left forearm (donor site) seemed okay to use, though I still need to get a CT scan to confirm. Radial Forearm Flap (RFF) is the best surgical method at getting tactile sensation and the least bulky. Other methods are at the expense of one or the other, so thank you to my ulner artery for the good blood flow. Yay.

    Unfortunately, I’m probably giving up the dream of urethra lengthening. I knew it was a possibility, but I had to face that it could complicate things with an erectile device and be a higher chance of complication given my medical history. I was really hoping I could pee like I used to, but I can be pragmatic too. She didn’t give me grief for scrotoplasty, so I accepted that she stressed the risks of UL in my situation for good reason.

    I have to meet with a urologist about the logistics of vaginectomy. I really fucking hope there are no issues there. It sounds like it should be alright, but need to discuss first. Fingers crossed. I fucking hate that thing so much, goddamn.

    I have a follow up appointment in a few months after all those logistical boxes are checked and she’s had time to work with her team on a proper game plan. If everything goes well, we could schedule after that appointment.

    I’m so glad I didn’t kill myself. Today was exhausting, but I’m okay.

      • inTheShadowOf [she/her]@hexbear.netEnglish
        12·
        29 days ago

        Yes, that’s me. I guess I underestimated people thinking about me and I’m sorry for not saying something sooner. For a while I didn’t know what was next in life for me and then I wanted to wait till I had something good to share. Anyway, thank you and I won’t disappear like that again 💜

        • BountifulEggnog [it/its, she/her]@hexbear.netEnglish
          13·
          29 days ago

          Its okay, I understand.

          spoiler

          I shouldn’t have assumed but given you final posts on that account- I really, really thought you were gone and I thought about you a lot. I am really glad to hear this update. Thank you for not disappearing again. I know some/a lot of people here can tell from posting style but I can’t really, I recognized you around and liked you and stuff but never drew the connection. Anyway glad you do have something good to share cat-trans

          • inTheShadowOf [she/her]@hexbear.netEnglish
            6·
            28 days ago
            re:

            Tbh I had made some plans, but what I said to you a bit ago was true. Looking back made me feel hollow, like there’s work to be done still. Making the decision to end things is a very personal one, everyone’s different, but I decided to press on and try again with another surgeon. It wasn’t until later in 2025 that I felt more resolved in that decision.

            I really hope you’re able to find the things that keep you pushing on too. To echo what I said before, I really do believe that you can :>

    • lilypad [pup/pup's, it/its]@hexbear.netEnglish
      12·
      29 days ago
      spoiler

      I’m so happy you’re finding people who will work with you to do what you want and need!! bridget-vibe its hard to talk about trauma and dysphoria and life story stuff, u did good getting thru it. I get embarrassed with crying unless its a vulnerable place, and so I tend to just shut my mouth and say nothing.

      There was another user on here a while back who was in a similar situation, and idk if ur the same user but if u are I’m so happy to see you doing better doggirl-happy

      I’m really glad you didn’t kill yourself cat-trans

      • inTheShadowOf [she/her]@hexbear.netEnglish
        11·
        29 days ago
        re:

        Thank you, I really appreciate the kindness. It really is so hard to talk through trauma in front of people. Spent the rest of the day like 🫠 but hey at least it’s done now. That user was me, I kind of just needed to be away from everything a while… in hindsight tho I should have said something much sooner.

        I hope you’re doing well cat-trans

        • lilypad [pup/pup's, it/its]@hexbear.netEnglish
          11·
          29 days ago
          re: re:

          Its totally understandable to need a break and be away from everything! Tbh I’ve been considering purging this account and leaving for a while. And yeah, there’s a reason therapy is scheduled at the end of my day lol, the traumatalk takes so much. I’m glad youre finally getting to take these steps! Its wonderful to know yor still here, and idk just I’m happy to see you getting care

          I hope you’re doing well

          I’m doing a lot better than I was a year or two ago. I have a bit more stability in my life, I’m on the right meds instead of ones that make me fall apart (and then made me just-this-side-of-psychotic when I went off them), I have income, and things are looking as up as they can (given the circumstances)

  • Hestia [she/her, fae/faer]@hexbear.netMEnglish
    25·
    29 days ago

    A coworker just came out to me and started asking a bunch of questions about transitioning. Never interacted with her before as we are in different departments, but I always got a gender queer vibe from her. Now I have someone to mentor catgirl-heart

  • catter [comrade/them, she/her]@hexbear.netEnglish
    23·
    28 days ago

    Came out as enby, depression started lifting, had the energy to find some cool queer meetups in my area, and now I’ve started doing some organizing too. My life didn’t end when I came out, even though I really felt like it would. Actually, things are better than they ever have been.

    Thanks for all your support, comrades 💜

  • Arahnya [he/him, fae/faer]@hexbear.netEnglish
    22·
    27 days ago
    transmisogyny, anti-transmasculinity

    you know, I might struggle with being accepted in the “community” as someone who is transmasc, non-binary, both lesbian and gay, and also a futch / twink (controversial identities in an of themselves) but for some reason 🙄 this identity is somehow less controversial than just being a trans woman who is also a lesbian, compounded by multiple marginalized identities.

    I am reminded of the article which said that anti-transmasculinity it is actually a trojan horse for transmisogyny. While it is concerning that radfems occasionally target transmasc lesbians or he/him lesbians, I feel that it’s really just a hidden attack for trans women. And making transmascs or other tme non-binary people out to be the main victims in all of this (and therefore worthy of being named while trans women are left out) doesn’t sit right with me.

  • 🎀 Seryph (She/Her)@lemmygrad.ml
    20·
    26 days ago

    Little update again: I got my first thesis fully done! One last thesis and then I can graduate and move on to grad school. I got a super good funding offer too.

    Also finally got my name and gender changed! Took 2 fucking delays but it happened! They did mispell my middle name somehow (twice! They mispelled it on the first delay too) but at this point I don’t fucking care enough to bother fixing it.

    Also still being very gay with my knight 😌

  • Wmill [they/them, fae/faer]@hexbear.netEnglish
    19·
    29 days ago

    I woke up thinking “oh damn 37 messages” before realizing the majority of them are dms or cute posts from my gf here that I replied to then went back unchecked the read mark and just have them in my inbox to look at again soviet-bottom she’s as pretty as she is smart folx

  • BountifulEggnog [it/its, she/her]@hexbear.netEnglish
    19·
    25 days ago

    Been wanting to try it/its pronouns for a while as a second secret set of pronouns but put them first so people actually use them hopefully. I don’t have anything poetic to say about it I just think its based.

  • DerEwigeAtheist [she/her, comrade/them]@hexbear.netEnglish
    19·
    27 days ago

    My transition has been pretty successful tbh. Just short of my 2 year anniversary, and I mostly pass, even if I have to shave and my voice is deep. I don’t even wear skirts or make-up. Injections are king. Tho, being stealth is a strange experience. I might come out to some of my coworkers. In a few weeks.

  • meler [she/her, pup/pup's]@hexbear.netOPEnglish
    18·
    28 days ago
    meler hornyposting??, mention of high school boys 😭, bottom dysphoria

    I read some smut last night and I think I got horny for the first time ever. It was different than I expected. I’ve never been boyhorny but I suspect I’ve been on E long enough for that to have been girlhorny???

    I’d hated the concept of being horny for a long time because my only real experience with it was overhearing the type of shit straight boys say to each other at a high school lunch table catgirl-disgust

    But like last night gave me a surprizing amount of gender euphoria too. Like there I was reading that shit feeling like such a girlllll y’all

    I did get bottom dysphoria for the first time too though so that’s kinda fucked up but other than that I’d call last night a big success