TerminalEncounter [she/her]

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Cake day: December 16th, 2021

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  • There have been people turned away for memes on their phones, there are currently Canadian citizens held in ICE detention facilities on seemingly spurious grounds or for things that wouldve normally led to regular deportation, and our government advice has been dont fuck around and just take a burner phone when crossing the border, plus America has some shitty attitudes towards trans people especially when held in detention. Saying that, plenty of people have gone without issue and you dont hear about all the cases like mine where everything was fine

    Technically, as a member of communist party, I am also ineligible to immigrate~ Cant remember if that’s only for permanent residency/citizenship or if it also applies to temporary residents (like me when I went just to visit and tour)






  • Being LGBT is so confusing because we dont have any of the nice relationship stuff handed down to us anymore, its all in the air. One would think being polite and some common sense might preclude one from asking out a roommate - but roommates to lovers is a thing that sometimes happens. Its all in the air, especially a freshly cracked trans girl just starting out. I bet there’s some crossed wires with specifically your roommate between platonic love and romantic love and the love we show the trans sisterhood in general, and hopefully she’ll get a handle on it as hormones settle (dont discount the horniness of second puberty and the power of a crush towards someone who is nice and frankly life saving to them, I get it as a nurse too)

    We so often had to repress and feel ashamed about gender feelings along with however much dealing with romantic feelings as an egg was. Its easy when its been repressed for a couple decades at least for it to come out way strong.

    You didnt do anything wrong, she shot her shot and hopefully didnt let the hinting phase get too awkward. Embarassing lesson, but ideally the both of you can come back from this and settle in to just roommates. If not, you or her might have to figure out alternate housing arrangements (especially if she cant let it go). Im surprised you feel used - I think you should interrogate that and think about it, you’ve extended help with gender stuff like HRT and fashion, youre roommates, and you seem to have done that on your own. Why feel used when she asked you out? Im sure she would’ve needed the help if she was straight and not interested in you. I can appreciate you feeling used when she touched you, hopefully you shut that down then or will going forwards with others - and hopefully she learns to start asking for consent, although I know it feels weird and unusual









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    One thing that seems to be true of trans femmes around our age that came out after adulthood, is were all very good at denying the things we want and depersonalizing. You’ve probably had a life time of self denial where those neural patterns are very worn in. You will have to learn to want the things you want and let yourself feel it.

    If you want others to use she/her pronouns - tell them! Keep presenting femme, wear a skirt, a dress, wear makeup, grow your hair. Take HRT! Voice train (please by all that is holy, start ASAP. You might feel embarrassed or have a hard time starting, do it and start training - I swear passing is like 80% voice training)