Been feeling great putting together outfits lately, but my shoe game is so weak 😭 Wearing my flowy alternative summer diva outfit paired with Tims was not the look. Gotta get me some chunky bratz sandals. I still felt fantastic once the shoes came off though 🙂
I am sure I’ll be hoping it was sometime soon 😬 My fear was I’d lose clarity, like I’m making it all up because I’m depressed. I am much less depressed now but still have the clarity 😎
Nonbinary life has been going well. I was kind of worried that my dysphoria was tied to my seasonal depression, but actually I can still see it pretty clearly now. I guess that inner work is paying off. That is good progress even though it sounds like bad news lol
Hope you all are safe and well
Great post, I’ve shared this with a few comrades. Thanks for expanding my view!
A question for you: what are your thoughts on this energy transition with respect to data centers? Specifically, Trump announced a policy proposal which mentioned data centers will be allowed to produce their own electricity (which they can also sell back to the grid if they want). The U.S.'s rotting infrastructure was not designed in the first place to deliver consistently high loads to a single place. Solar and wind probably can’t provide all the electricity needed for these operations, but it may at least offset some of the strain on local power grids. Are data centers the new rural manufacturing plants?
Yes, I wish it could tone down the silliness somewhat 😅
Mine is on a weekday too, but I actually look forward to it now! It’s a nice way to break up the week 🙂 I hope it goes great for you 🥰
Thank you! You were instrumental in getting me to push through 💜
Came out as enby, depression started lifting, had the energy to find some cool queer meetups in my area, and now I’ve started doing some organizing too. My life didn’t end when I came out, even though I really felt like it would. Actually, things are better than they ever have been.
Thanks for all your support, comrades 💜
Between here and my support group, I’ve finally been able to make the leap to an outward queer identity. I’ve settled on non-binary for now, knowing that’s probably not the whole of it.
Things are very complicated and hard because of that, but my partner has taken it pretty well 🙂 Actually, it feels like the first time I’ve been fully present for them in a long time. They make me feel so loved and accepted 🥰
@TerminalEncounter@hexbear.net, thanks for giving me such tough advice. I really needed to hear that, even though I didn’t want to.
Wow, first of all, thank you for not backing down on this. I needed to hear that. I will have to spend some time thinking about the sick system concept. In some ways, I think I’m the center of one, even though I don’t mean to be. My partner has described a feeling of complete instability in our relationship, which lines up with the neverending crisis componenent. They have always been clear that they want me to succeed, and if that means I am trans, they want me to feel like I can express it fully. I’ve been whittling that part of me down because it is hard to face.
I’m not really scared of being single. At least, I don’t think I am. My partner is financially dependent on me. It sounds wrong verbalizing this now, but I have been scared they will struggle without me. They are struggling because of me now though. I guess I know what I have to do. Thanks 💜
I think that’s a fair take based on what I’ve said here. Maybe I’m not being a great member of this community by sadposting so much and not sharing the positives, but there are positives. I don’t mean that in a defensive way, just reflecting. I’m distressed because of the things I love about my relationship.
Things are progressing for me, though. You and others here have helped with that immensely. I’m the closest to coming out that I’ve ever been, and the anxiety of that proximity is hard to handle sometimes. I guess I just want to feel like I tried to make my old life and the new one fit together. Sorry if I’m rambling.
Things are starting to look pretty bleak in my relationship. They are an anxious personality type and are needing constant assurance that nothing is changing. Things are not changing in who I am as a person, but damn, we don’t want anything to change? My lifelong depression should just stay this way?
This is probably just from me not feeling sure about who I am. If I could come out as trans without friction, I’d probably do it just to try. I’m waiting for the waveform collapse. I have to do something even though I don’t know what that is, I can’t stay in the closet like this much longer. Please send your best vibes.
One thing I absolutely was not prepared for with starting to come out is the level of internalized homophobia. I have this absolutely bloodthirsty, malicious voice in me that wants to harm any part of me that steps out of line. I’ve been writing about it to try and vomit it all out. It keeps coming.
Wrote a poem about drowning myself in a local pond I like to visit. It was more about the before and after. The walk into the woods, the weather that day, whether I would leave my keys in the car. Then how I would be found, by whom, how hurtful it would be. That the resting expression on my face doesn’t show me at peace peace, it shows there’s nothing there at all.
I want true peace and joy so badly. I can almost envision it, but it feels forever just out of reach. The struggle continues even though I am too tired to face it. I can’t give up again either. :::
Thanks for all of your support. I hope we can all get through this.
Yeeeaaah things fucking suck again, but at least I am writing again. Nothing good though 😬
Finally made butt things work for me 😅 I’ve always been scared because it felt unsanitary to me. That also kept me from being able to relax and enjoy it. Still struggling to relax, but I definitely enjoyed it today 😳
Don’t really want to be here anymore. Not like I want to hurt myself, but I just wish I could not be for a little while. Sometimes I’m really happy, and other times I wish I could go back to feeling nothing at all. Today it’s the latter 😮💨
You always have such good energy. Thank you 💜
Honestly, intersectionality is what got me here, as I just kept leapfrogging. My path was
It is a really odd path, but for me it has always been easier to wish better for others, rather than myself. Doing that made me realize that I deserve consideration too 
All Stars are cute as hell 🥰 That’s also on my shopping list (hopefully the thrift gods will help me out)