I have been completely unable to look in the mirror properly for around 4 years, this is mostly about hair loss. Today after my injection, I wanted to take some pictures, and I felt pretty hot and feminine and then I caught a glance of my hairline in the mirror, that gave me the confidence to properly look at myself and wow. It felt good. Like, it's not completely perfect, but I thought I had the world's worst receding hairline, but it looked fine. And now I really want to get a haircut, because that can make it look pretty nice.

I feel great about being able to look at myself. But wtf, I had some REALLY BAD body dysmorphia about this, like I thought it was bad enough that the only way would be shaving it all. I completely avoided mirrors for YEARS, and this probably blew everything out of proportion. And while writing this I realized I had a very severe case of body dysmorphic disorder plus dysphoria. I am so happy.