it’s hot. also i’m growing cacti from seed which is new to me and i’m excited, a few of them are sprouting now. how are you?

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  • gaystyleJoker [she/her]@hexbear.netMEnglish
    4·
    4 days ago

    hi, does anyone wanna make the mega in the upcoming weeks? if so, reply to this post and i’ll add you to the list!

    the list as it stands:

    Disaster_of_Passion (7/7 - 7/13)
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nemmybun (9/8 - 9/14)

    ​ * after name denotes someone who has posted before and will be skipped by first-time posters

  • XiaCobolt [she/her]@hexbear.netEnglish
    6·
    6 hours ago

    I’m going to try to touch grass, exercise and read some books.

    I had influenza b for two weeks and got so sick. All I did was lurk the internet and it’s been really bad for mental health.

  • EstraDoll [she/her, he/him]@hexbear.netEnglish
    8·
    7 hours ago
    dysphoria/euphoria posting?

    really dysphoric about my tits, feel like they’re still tiny compared to cis girl tits

    all the other trans girlies in the discord are swapping tit pics

    figure i might as well throw mine into the pile

    they look bigger in the pics than i’d thought they’d look

    one of them straight up says they thought I had a BA already (14 months HRT, + 8 months prog, zero surgeries)

    actually measure them

    C cups

    okay holy shit never mind uh… i guess i got some real fuckin boobs now, don’t i?

  • segfault11 [any]@hexbear.netEnglish
    8·
    8 hours ago

    Grrr I didn’t really want to post about this but I’m dornk enough to rn

    I’m helping my sister move in a few weeks and I’m going to take the opportunity to also come out as trans to her. We haven’t been close since she moved away a little over 10 years ago. I wanted to do this last Christmas but it felt weird since I was still pre-everything at the time, plus we were with our parents as a mini-family gathering, which made it all weird. But this time I’ll be going on my own at around 6 months on HRT and with some fem clothing. I know she’s somewhat accepting of queer people, but idk how she’ll react to her lil “bro” being a trans girl.

    Idk I’m not looking for advice or whatever, just wanted to vent my anxieties about something coming up 🤷‍♀️

  • segfault11 [any]@hexbear.netEnglish
    7·
    8 hours ago
    stuff that might trigger dysphoria for trans women

    is it fucked up that I like looking like a guy with long hair and tiny boobs

    like I don’t pass as a woman at all but I look like a guy who’s far from masculine, and I’m okay with it, not just in a coping way. my face is still rough and exposes facial hair shadow. my shoulders are wider than most women my size

    I wish I had less fat around my midsection but aside from that I like myself

    boobs

  • Wmill [they/them, fae/faer]@hexbear.netEnglish
    6·
    9 hours ago

    You can play no-copyright secret rings and black knight on dolphin with a controller and while I have beaten both with my wii mote before the controller method is good too. Secret rings is the one recommended most for this method, black knight is alright and if anything I prefer it that way since swinging the wii mote like a sword will always be sick.

    Part of me really wants to enjoy black knight more but with it being the end of the series I just keep putting off the 100% of it more and more since I don’t wanna be done with it catgirl-cry

  • frankfurt_schoolgirl [she/her]@hexbear.netEnglish
    10·
    11 hours ago

    I had to find a new roommate this spring because my old one moved in with his gf. I thought it would be cool to live with another trans women. It was going to be a good friend, but then she backed out last minute and I went with a stranger. It went well for a while tho, we were friends and would do stuff together, and she was clean and stuff.

    But recently, she began trying to touch me. Like sayiyshe was anxious and wanted a hug, leaving me no space when we were on the couch, weirdly putting her head on me. Then she straight up asked me out on a date.

    Now besides the obvious issues with dating a roommate, I am not even slightly attracted to her. I don’t think we have that sort of connection at all, whatsoever. I guess normally that would be fine, like if someone asks me out but im not interested, I just politely decline. But for some reason, this whole thing has really bothered me.

    Part of it is because she’s my roommate, so it’s awkward. But idk I’ve also spent a bunch of time helping her with stuff, like getting her on a better HRT regimen, or recommending a place to get her hair cut, or shopping together. I felt happy to do those things because I love helping out other trans women. But idk, now I just feel used I guess. I find myself feeling really annoyed when I see her, and I barely want to talk. I have no idea how to make things right, cause the last four days it has been very awkward.

    I wish it was easier to make trans friends in general without there having to be gay drama involved. A good platonic friend seems to me to be worth so much more than another confusing situationship. It’s often so hypersexual when I meet other trans girls. Like I wanna hang out and do normal woman stuff, and instead I get invited to the Discord with the NSFW channel, and I’m forced to learn everyone’s kinks, and if they hang out it’s to try and get in my pants.

    It makes me want to only befriend straight girls, but the worst part is that im not even straight. Maybe I just hate myself? Idk I would still never ask out my roommate.

  • Wmill [they/them, fae/faer]@hexbear.netEnglish
    3·
    9 hours ago

    Feeling kinda down ngl, always happens be hanging out with friends and then they gone and I’m here just alone. It’s a feeling that passes after a bit at least the more intense part and just sticks around like a dull ache before it clears up. Loneliness sucks but like it’s just the highs and lows of social interaction for me shrug-outta-hecks