I was planning to write a longer post for this mega and then Silksong happened so… oops?
Short version is this week is my 9th tranniversary. I don’t remember which day exactly so I like to say it was 9/11 so I’d never forget. What ultimately cracked my egg all those years ago was not the deep yearning when looking at women that I couldn’t identify as envy or the increasingly intense and umm horny dreams where I had the power to instantly change my gender. No it was that fucking faceapp gender swap filter. I just kept staring at that pic like it was a mirror into an alternate universe where I was happier and suddenly everything clicked into place. The first few years were hit or miss with a lot of other life changes happening at the time that interfered with getting properly started so in some ways it’s more like a 5 or 6 year tranniversary but whatever.
It’s weird to say I’m almost done but I really am so close to making all the changes I wanted. I’ll never stop being trans, but I’m definitely moving from trans(itioning) femme to trans(itioned) femme and that’s quite exciting. And maybe a little wistful looking back at the journey.
Have a good week everyone!
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there are so many things I want to learn and do but then I just kinda spend my time not really doing much of anything
*sigh* yea… yea
many such cases
Ugh omigod mooooood. Im hoping meds will help with the executive function problems
I’m probably gonna have to take the grill pill and just log off entirely at some point, the internet is too distracting even with meds
yeah… and even when not doing either of those i’m just so dang tired all the time mentally and physically without even having done anything…
God thats so real… I spend time with friends -> how will i emotionally recover from this. Like, everything is just so fucking draining now… Goddamn. I keep on going tho, i keep on going, i keep on, i keep, i, ,