The oppressed classes always harbor reactionary ideas, as the prevailing political opinions are heavily influenced by the ruling class that benefits from marginalization. It’s entirely possible that you still harbor unexamined reactionary opinions, it happens to the best of us and we are all in a process of improvement.

To be honest, political work and analysis isn’t really about liking the masses personally, it’s about appreciating their oppression, what causes them to be that way, seeing what potential they had and lost due to false consciousness, and seeing what potential they have to become a force to overturn the current order. Our work is not done in behalf of others, but for the larger cause, and identifying and using uniting factors (mainly but not only class).

You could also think of the role of a vanguard party vs. those in a particular economic relation. Prior to several socialist revolutions, agrarian laborers in non-capitalist relations were essential to the revolution itself, even though they harbored reactionary opinions and sought interests directly opposed to those of workers. They were termed petty bourgeois in this regard by communists. And yet societal transformation leveraged them as an integral part of revolution, and after the hot revolution began the “peacetime” revolution of building society more equitably and in line with industrialization, intentionally undermining those petty bourgeois economic relations. So in this example we can see how large groups of people individually useful in these projects were far out of alignment with communists but joined the cause anyways, that they were made useful, that they were them transformed through economic and other social relations afterwards (and the worst of them were, you know, shot during civil war).

So basically it’s understandable to be like, “I am fighting for the material security of this transphobic piece of shit?” but also don’t forget that overall class struggle is still where we must begin our focus.