Looking at myself in the mirror is wild, I literally never used to be able to especially after a shower or whatever. HRT did a lot of work and bottom surgery took care of the rest.

I didnt feel a lot of dysphoria before cracking my egg, in fact thinking that thats how people know they were trans was holding me back - but I did get a lot of euphoria when I went out in drag or whatever! Looking back, I actually had a shitload of gender dysphoria since puberty more or less. I just didnt know thats what it was… Anyway a lot of that is gone now. Its such a huge relief, I didnt know just how much of a burden it all was until it was finally gone.

My friend/a little more than friend described bottom surgery for her as feeling very light. A different friend of mine said she finally felt complete. I can definitely appreciate both points of view. I did know I wanted a vagina after wrestling with it for a while and I love my completely valid non-op trans femmes, but I knew I wanted it. I didnt really think I had that much bottom dysphoria until it was finally gone and I could look back at it. Its so strange and wonderful to just see a woman in the mirror. A lot of this feels like 7 years ago when I was juuuust starting to transition and dress up and work on my voice, almost the same level of euphoria. Its crazy!