Hi everybody!
I’d originally planned on having a big effort post, but I’ve had some Bad BrainTM the last couple weeks so that’ll just have to wait until next time.
In the meantime, it’s my 2 year HRT Anniversary! These past couple years have also been the first time I’ve really been in community with other trans folx; I’ve had so many breakthroughs and discoveries of myself that I don’t think would have been possible without that and I can’t be thankful enough.
I hope everybody has a lovely week!
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My mom found my HRT medication a few days ago. Things haven’t been going well.
Normally i take my HRT with me so i have access to it at all times no matter where i am. I kept my usual medication along with some vials in case i was desperate and out of options in my work bag. One day when i was walking my dog, i absentmindedly left my bag at home. When i realized that i shrugged it off and said “nah, it’ll be fine” because my mom makes a big deal about privacy and respecting boundaries. Those don’t apply when you’re 19 and still in the house apparently!
She sat me down and asked me what i was doing with these drugs. I had to explain everything that happened between me and my now ex, how suicidal i was before HRT and why i took it. It was a stressful conversation that ended in me having to tell my mom my partner coerced consent from me several times for their own sexual pleasure. Eventually she said that we’ll “revisit this conversation” after telling me i’m “toying with my hormones” and that it’ll “get me killed”. I’m doing DIY through my own research and checking in w my trans comrades both online and irl, for context.
With the way things are looking i might have to move out, run away, something - anything. I can’t let her keep controlling me and i’m not gonna change that by living with her.