That’s a large part of it. I think I internalized a lot of suffer=good. And no matter what I spend money on it feels like I could be spending it on something better. But spending it on other people is fine because its better then me.I’m used to it anyway and other self depreciation thoughts.
Like don’t get me wrong, I am happy that it’s easy for me to soend money on others but I do need to get things for myself at times that is more planned then the final impulse purchase once every so often. (Normally a game or food.) I think I’ve gotten better but I almost always end back where I started without realizing it.
That’s a large part of it. I think I internalized a lot of suffer=good. And no matter what I spend money on it feels like I could be spending it on something better. But spending it on other people is fine because its better then me.I’m used to it anyway and other self depreciation thoughts.
Like don’t get me wrong, I am happy that it’s easy for me to soend money on others but I do need to get things for myself at times that is more planned then the final impulse purchase once every so often. (Normally a game or food.) I think I’ve gotten better but I almost always end back where I started without realizing it.