When I was closest to this kind of stuff I wss pushing my brain fucking hard with drugs. Mostly acid and speed so I wouldn’t be sleeping for days at a time and ess tripping hard too often. It put me in a PLACE mentally that feels very similar to what you described. I also felt stuck in it while not like truly believing in my heart of hearts it was real. I don’t know where im going with this entirely aside from i think I get what you’re talking about
That sounds a lot like it. That’s one reason I try not to mess much with drugs: I feel like my brain does some of that on its own, and I don’t need to help it get there. Not meaning to judge people who do use those drugs; that’s just my reason for staying away.
When I was closest to this kind of stuff I wss pushing my brain fucking hard with drugs. Mostly acid and speed so I wouldn’t be sleeping for days at a time and ess tripping hard too often. It put me in a PLACE mentally that feels very similar to what you described. I also felt stuck in it while not like truly believing in my heart of hearts it was real. I don’t know where im going with this entirely aside from i think I get what you’re talking about
That sounds a lot like it. That’s one reason I try not to mess much with drugs: I feel like my brain does some of that on its own, and I don’t need to help it get there. Not meaning to judge people who do use those drugs; that’s just my reason for staying away.
Ive done everything to a decent excess and can honestly say, you aren’t missing much.