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lilypad [pup/pup's, it/its]

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  • ::: spoiler spoiler Rick berman should never have had control tbhtbh. They should have followed the lead of the actor who played garak. Iirc he said in an interview he was confused about garaks motivations re bashir, then he saw siddig el fadil and realized "oh, garak wants to fuck him".

  • Idk if ill ever tell people i use pup/pups... That ones weird enough/nonstandard enough that people will be weird about it

  • Thinking about telling people IRL that I use it/its in addition to she/her... Its harrrrdddddd..... And like, i dont like being called they/them, it just feels bad, but like it feels bad cause gender™. It/its doesnt convey gender either, but feels better cause im not a person and dont want to be a person, its like orthogonal to gender. If there was a feminine or woman-gendered it/its pronoun set i would use that.

    English should drop pronoun system and just use one pronoun each for 1st/2nd/3rd person, with root modulation to communicate plurality, object, subject, in- and exclusivity, genitive, reflexive, and other gramatical function, and then use pre-, in-, and/or suffixes to communicate identity components like gender, personhood, (in)animate, and other identity facets.

  • Yesssss quark is so amazing. Such a good little toadie. His character development is great and i love how he uhhhh i cant say that without spoilers lol. Suffice to say, hes amazing.

    ::: spoiler shipping Quark X Odo is my fav ship too. Ok maybe Bashir X Garak is better... Its hard to choose lol

  • ::: spoiler kinkyearning, sex, and ig reflection?

    Ugh, i love the kinkstuff, but the next day i just find myself craving morrreeeeee. Just want all the attention, all the slaps and the degredation and the implements and the powerloss and the ropes and the commands and the everything. Fuck. Like, my sexuality is mostly responsive, mostly low sex drive, very very hard for me to cum like at all (which is so frustrating). But kink? Very high drive for it, once the taste is on my tongue i just want more more more (suck at social interaction and meeting people tho so

    ). Also frustrating that most of the people ive tended to meet and get on well with are more gentle/pleasure oriented dommes. Like, thats fun, and i appreciate the presence theyve had in my life and enjoy my time with them, but at the end of the day i want pain and intensity. Pleasure is wonderful alongside it, getting fucked alongside it is wonderful, but the pain just makes me feel so good. Like, is there a word for that painpleasure wave that comes from impact, with the shaking and the screaming? Like, i dont think i convert pain into pleasure, but it feels like an orgasm in the sense of my physical reaction to it, but it isnt an orgasm? Idk, whatever the word for it is, its funnnnnnnn.

  • Das cause kits absolutely adorbs chat

  • Ur adorable

  • They scared the shit out of me too, both before i started and for about 6 months after i started. Fwiw, if you get diy injections that use MCT as the carrier oil, its thin enough that you can use 31g insulin needles to inject. Its tiny, almost painless, and you dont have to go into the muscle. At one point i was using either 6mm or 8mm (i cant remember which) long needles for it with no leakage. I know its scary, and i cant tell you to do injections. You know yourself far better than i do. But if you feel like you maybe possibly might be capable of it, even just a 1% chance, its worth checking out. My first injection took me 45 minutes to do. 45 minutes to slowly push a tiny 31g needle into my fat tissue. I was so terrified. I was shaking and scared. But it was worth it. I still cant do intramuscular. But subq is just as effective and is far far easier.

  • ::: spoiler cw kink

    Had a very fun impact scene. God sometimes i forget how fun it is. I wish i could get beaten every day but my body cant handle it. And the person i was playing with is so communicative and receptive to me speaking up about my weird broken special care needing body, she doesnt make me feel like im topping from the bottom, she hears me when i say "hey thats too close to tendons" or "hey thats not an ok spot to hit cause my joints are bad". Feels so safe and so good. I love being a freaky kinky weirdo

  • how often you log in

    Sudo caches my password for like 3 minutes, so i type this all the time

    typing of the dead

    Omg i love itttt!

  • This was really helpful, thank you.

    In my experience, orgs struggle the most with back-end volunteers - the people who write up minutes and send out reminder messages and provide intake info and organize their documents and all of that other stuff.

    This was heartening, i cant do suuuuper fast steno typing to get everything people say, but i can do minutes and the like (im at maybe 60-75 WPM and proud of it). I can organize shit, i can do administrative work and all of this stuff. This makes me feel like theres (potentially) a place here for me.

    Are you going to that meeting? No. Not gonna happen. Don't even bother asking. Are you going to clear a backlog of 6 months of administrative logjam? Yes. And if that isn't seen as a crucial contribution to organizing then whoever feels that way can fuck right off.

    Me. This is me. Fuck meetings. Give me the sweet sweet admin backlog!

  • Gods i do not want to be a lenin lol, thats for others to do. I would love to be able to provide housing to other trans folks, but im scraping by and cant extend monetary resources to people. And yeah, didnt take long after coming out to myself to become a dirty filthy pinko¹

    ¹ silly tone

  • My audhd is truly a blessing in some ways. I can spend a day on something hyperfocused on it and do so so much. I would love to put that energy and capability towards organizing.

  • If you have ADHD and autism (like myself) and you aren't medicated, it is even more crucial that you do whatever you can to get medicated for your ADHD.

    1000%. Im currently medicated (both stimulants and a2 (ant?)agonists) and getting on the meds was really really good for me. It made it possible for me to do things. Like super basic things. Its why i wasnt crying and freaking out at this most recent meeting i attended and instead was able to save that for afterwards.

    Im not an org member rn, but have had interest in that for a while now. The panic is just a lot and all of my exposure to local orgs has been through these "fire the people up" type events. Idk if its the adhd, the autism, past traumas that are unknown to me (i have a lot of missing parts of my memory), or a combo of some or all of the above. Regardless of the why/the roots of my difficulties, from the comments here i think ill reach out to either psl or frso and ask about how i can contribute within my capacities.

  • Yeah. Ill contact local orgs then i guess, ask about how i can contribute given how my brain functions. youre right, it shouldnt be on us, but i definitely take it onto myself. A lifetime of my needs being ignored has instilled that "no one will accommodate me, ill just do my own thing away from everyone" mentality.

    Thank you for the reminder and for the vehemence of your words, genuinely its helpful and appreciated

  • This song was really fun for my language nerd brain! Dialects just make me happy idk. Also was fun to hear the namedropping, made it close to home.

    can't have enough highly divergent dialectal variants of extremely basic function words, can you?!

    Got the best negation words folks! Ikke, ikkje, ikkji, inte, ennte, ette, itte, ittje, ittj, kje, kji (iirc ive also heard kkji? Like k-kj-i. But i could have also been mishearing things and the first k belonged to preceeding word), and all the other variants i havent heard or have forgotten lol

    hvaru

    I remember meeting someone named Are, but she was from a town (i dont recall where) where the r was a tap. She had to explain every time she introduced herself to someone that her name was Are not Ade, cause pretty much everyone, from egersund to hammerfest¹, couldnt differentiate between tapped r and d.

    ¹ im being hyperbolic here, but it was most people from what she said

  • ::: spoiler silly Laws:

     
        
         Are   Fake
    Are  Are   A rake
    Fake Faker Fake
    
      

    ∴ Laws are a rake faker.

  • Before, guns had to have a round put in the chamber through operating a bolt. when the first self loading guns were made, they were referred to as "automatic" cause you didnt have to do anything to get the next round into the chamber. (This is from memory and could be wrong or off)

    Today automatic colloquially means the firearm repeatedly fires as long as the trigger is held, though in pistols the phrase automatic seems to have held on to its meaning as self loading.

  • Youre oki!

    I like seeing updates from the cool trans people in my phone, whether theyre joyous or sorrowful