I think I might develop a crush on my friend, if I haven't already and am just unaware of it. we've been curling up and cuddling a lot lately and its been lovely, watching movies and then falling asleep intertwined together, giving each other tender touch, tracing lines on each others skin and cuddling for hours. But I dont want to put myself in a position of unrequited desire.

Its so nice to entwine ourselves, her head on my chest, pulling hair out of her face and tracing lines on the skin of her back; falling asleep with her arms around me, laying on her shoulder and looking up at her. I dont want to stop that closeness but also if I develop a crush I should. and like yes I'm autistic and dont pick up on sexual/romantic interest from others, but I'm also pretty sure she hasn't expressed any indications of that towards me. Idk, rn I'm happy with where things are at, and if I stop being happy with it, wanting more or having like clear crush-crush feelings, I'll talk about it with her; I'd be crushed (lol) if the friendship got weird and awkward or dissolved.

Oki so y'all got me doubting my perception of things, I'm gonna talk to her (hopefully today, she's coming over to spend time with my roommate and said shed get here a bit before so hopefully we've got time for that) and ask what her perceptions intentions and desires are around all of this. Ams anxious but is better to talk than not talk.