I relate to this so much. Sometimes in my happy periods, I get very anxious. Because I know how hard I crash. I know how painful it feels and how difficult it is to function when it occurs. And while I always feel “cured” when I’m happy again, the back of my mind knows that the next ride of the rollercoaster is inevitable.

I guess I just wish the valleys weren’t so steep and deep. A lot of people irl seem to have a smaller amplitude than I do.