I could use a hug

That’s a fair concern I suppose. Altho in my 15+ years of doing this, I’ve never come close to affecting any sort of lock in this manner.

The only time I have a lock get fucked is that periodically my condo complex gets the place power washed. Well, every single time, they seem to spray water directly into one of the two locks on the front door. It fucks it up majorly and makes it so you cannot lock or unlock the door unless you spray that powdered door lock grease inside. Luckily that stuff seems to fix it each time at least.

Lol yes I would agree that my keys aren’t particularly useful for cutting fruit. I guess I’ve just never been in a position where I’m not at home and I need to cut up a fruit or vegetable. At home I use a kitchen knife + cutting board.

I have the same question as the person who you’ve responded to. Do you have all digital locks on everything? Even your residence?

Am I the only one who always just uses my keys to open and break down boxes? I always have my keys on me. No need to carry extra things on me like a knife. Bonus that you can use them to open the can tab too!

Personally, I am someone who prefers the other form factor…a regular sized phone that can fold to become smaller. Works great for stupid ass tiny women’s pants pockets.

But I don’t understand why the form factor that I enjoy is just not nearly as popular as the folding tablets. Doesn’t seem like many people have use for carrying a small tablet with them unless they are big into drawing. But idk.

I’ve never had the ability to feel sexual pleasure, unfortunately. Was a confusing time growing up. It also sometimes makes me really feel like I’m missing out. When all media revolves around sex and you can’t even feel pleasure from masturbation, it feels like you’re missing something from the core human experience. Sometimes it has made me feel like a different species.

I guess at least for me, I “don’t know what I’m missing” because I’ve never experienced it. I’m sorry that you know what it feels like so that it’s more painful when you can’t anymore.

Has anything changed in your life recently?

Same. I wish I could at least once because people make it sound amazing. But I think my plumbing just isn’t built correctly or something.

I built a whole ass cat wall for mine and he has never ever used it. I used to try to coax him up with treats and he would just go eat the treat and then come back down.

I’m contemplating taking the thing off the wall but then I’ll have a bunch of holes in the wall.

My cat is broken. He only likes to sit out in the open on couches and chairs!!

I’m glad you’re still here and thank you so much for the words of advice/encouragement.

Yes I always hated the thought of inconveniencing people. But then I remember that I actually love helping other people. And so then others may actually feel the same way about helping me.

How do I see if “AppCloud” is on my phone? It is not in my list of apps on my phone, but I’m guessing this is a hidden app. I am not shown random ads or recommended apps on my phone though.

Edit: Ah ok never mind. The article says that it is only found on the A, M, and F series. My phone is none of these.

Social pressures. Yes, being hungry is uncomfortable and even can hurt, but if you ignore it long enough, it can sometimes become a bit more like background noise. I have always been a healthy weight, but my entire life I have had the paranoia of becoming fat. And so I am very accustomed to feeling hungry. When they started me a psych med that people can easily gain weight on, I started monitoring my weight more closely. Often, I go to bed with hunger pangs.

Quite frankly, I never understood how people are able to eat as much as I see them eat and still maintain a normal weight. I have always needed to eat less than others to maintain a healthy weight. My coworkers will eat 3 meals a day and be a healthy weight, but I have to eat 1 regular meal, 1 small meal, and maybe 1 small snack to stay a health weight. I’m guessing it’s because I’m shorter so there is less mass at a healthy weight. Sucks.

Why don’t they just bring back the wingtip design for the workout crowd? They work great and are not huge and bulky. My Buds FE are my most use pair of wireless earbuds simply because they stay put in my ears.

I recently adopted a singular adult cat and the process went very smooth and not pushy or weird at all. I went to a “cat cafe” which essentially showed cats from the local shelter. Maybe that’s why my experience was so pleasant.

I did visit an actual shelter prior to that and I didn’t have anyone hassling me, but I didn’t dive into the adoption process there. Actually, I spoke to one of the employees and told them I was concerned at adopting a pet as a single person who leaves the home to work every day about the pet possibly being lonely when I’m at work. It’s funny because he kind of looked at me like I had three heads and was like if you feed it and take care of it, it won’t matter. It’s still a lot better than them living on the street never being sure where their next meal will come from. It made me feel better about adopting.

My mom bought me a book on puberty and handed it to me. That was the extent of anything even remotely related to that. I don’t even think I read the book.

The public school system I grew up in had sex ed every year anyway, and occasional anti drug stuff.

I was always an isolated loner so I don’t think any of that was ever a concern for my parents anyway.

I absolutely understand what you mean. Saying positive stuff to yourself doesn’t work when you hate yourself. It feels gross.

The affirmation that finally clicked with me was “you are a human being”.

It doesn’t imply anything fake positive about yourself. And it’s a factual statement that cannot be argued, not an opinion.

But think about what it implies. A human being literally cannot be perfect. You are not a robot. That is the very nature of being human. I used to tell myself “you should know better” or “you should do better” frequently. Because I’m me and I know right from wrong and so I hated myself for not meeting said expectations.

But those expectations were not realistic. Because I’m not a robot. You’re not a robot. We are human beings. Human beings by definition cannot be perfect, even tho some appear like they may be. And that is ok. You still deserve love and compassion. You deserve it because you are a flawed human being.

I find that I don’t need to say it to myself much anymore nowadays, but I truly think it did help me to heal.

I have tried like 1.5 I guess lol. The one I was on for several months at a regular dose. The other one I was on for about a month at what the internet told me was a sub therapeutic dose. I thought my provider was going to titrate me up on that second one but was a bit disappointed when she immediately bailed on it for a different medication tho lol.

Granted I was having a hard time so I think she just wanted something to chill me the fuck the fuck out hahaha. I’ve been on a low dose of Seroquel ever since. Technically I’m a lot more stable than before which may or may not have to do with the drug. So I’m keen on keeping it for now. Still have issues now and then but meh.

Man people always make antidepressants sound like magic to me when I hear about stuff like this. When I took an antidepressant, I don’t think changed much about any of the way I thought or felt. Hell I was really wishing for the “emotional blunting” that I hear about to happen to me. It didn’t. My emotions were as extreme as ever and I would have loved for something to “blunt” them even a little lmaoo.

I mean like for example I’ve known I would die since I was young but I didn’t have such a fear an “awareness” of what that meant until much more recently if that makes sense.