I have caught myself before spiralling into a depressive episode. And I’m currently stable.
The morning was mostly normal, I had a fairly good sleep, my body was still sore from over exersising two days ago, and I had more surgar than usual with breakfest.
I spent a couple of hours listening to music while working on my resume. And took a break to make lunch.
There was something already noticable but I didn’t realize it untime I journaled this stuff down.
My wife was also in the kitchen and I was trying hard to have a posative playful mood. I think she noticed that I was trying too hard and spoke my name softly as she walked away. That’s when I noticed I was about to spiral.
I ate some chocolate 2 or 3 times as much I usually eat with breakfest (that’s still not a lot).
I hadn’t done my usal pick me ups yesterday since I did a lot the day before. It was gray and cold out today so can’t get the boost from the sun and my body is still sore and a little hurt from the exercise before. I focused on moving and getting my pizza finished.
I’ve been listening to good music, drank more herbal tea, and ate my pizza.
I seem to be stable right now.
I’m glad I caught this one, but are there any suggestions for how to deal with these? I’ve only recently been able the activly start fighting these back.
I have a lifetime of depression, but I have a family now and can’t just sulk it out or put my head down and work.
Hey, man, you’re trying and giving yourself grace. I think accepting yourself really goes a long way, whether you think so or not. Think about how much worse off you’d be if you didn’t.
I haven’t worked my way “out” yet either, but I do try to do some nice things for myself when I get that way, like you do. They haven’t solved things, but they add little niceties to my day. Honestly it’s almost as if we should treat ourselves like having recurring illnesses. What do you do if you have the flu? Do you try to do a zillion errands and run a marathon? No. You relax and let household chores slip a bit and get yourself some comfort items.
Unfortunately, calling out of work that often isn’t really feasible, so maintaining the ability to work is one thing that’s really unavoidable though.