Yeah, take some time to figure it out, think it through now. There's nothing wrong with giving up on hrt too. Maybe the having boobs thing isn't for you, and that's all well and good
It's very okay and normal to be afraid of changes, the unknown is scary. I'm not sure how long ago you started, but it takes time for it to really take effect. And, well, if this is happening in the span of a day, maybe tomorrow you'll feel excited about it again.
Saying that is very tansfem, tbh. Try to calm down and think about it. Do you want these changes? Do you feel good thinking about having breast development, fat redistribution and overall more feminine looking body? You can be NB or fluid and do HRT too.
Uh, I think it's unlikely. If your body produces mostly testosterone, you'd have to be having gynecomastia from an imbalance of estrogens/androgens in your body. Like, for example, a liver disease, kidney failure, thyroid disease or a metabolic dysfunction. Maybe get that checked out if it seems real enough, it could be something not good if it is really happening
I'm not judging you or anything, just curious on your reasons, why are you afraid of the changes? You don't need to answer if you don't feel comfortable sharing this.
Otherwise, good news. I found out that the health and sanitary administration of my country is very based and cool. Opposite to the medical regulation thingy, which is transphobic, reactionary and deeply unserious
I cannot give you advice on this, but staying together with someone that does not accept who you are is not going to work. You have to figure yourself out, if you really are trans, stop pushing it down, it will only harm you. And if being yourself is a deal-breaker, then, by all means, break the deal.
Oh, but it does not have to end in a fight, if the problem is just a loss of interest in a relationship, and you can manage being friends, then that also works.
Depends, I guess. At 15-16? Yeah just give them hrt. Too early might not be the best to just go full hrt. But then again 12 yo me was wishing to be a woman every so often, so IDK. Puberty blockers can probably have a purpose, like a little buffer for some time (not 2 fucking years though) before going forwards. But then, this has to be easily available as early as it would be safe.
I thought I would feel like that too, I was afraid to be just "a man in a dress" (yeah, internalized transphobia and all of that). That was until I put on a dress and looked in the mirror. I liked it, despite not looking like a woman completely, it felt good, closer. You won't know it until you try it, don't count it out just yet.
I go do some activities and stuff and suddenly I have a new friend group. This is weird, because I'm very introverted yet, somehow, it always happens.
Doing hobbies in places where people gather to do them is a good way. Like going to play card games in a store, or some board games event, or TTRPGs, or any hobby that is done in a group. This might also not work, and some places are more accepting than others.
Some people make friends going out to bars and stuff, but it does not work for me, I feel like having a thing to do so I don't have to go up to someone and make up a topic to talk about is much easier.
Agh going to the medic fucking sucks