I was flipping through the diaries I wrote as a teenager before bed tonight, and I realized how full of energy I used to be. Back then, even though I was under a lot of pressure, I was always hopeful about the future. Now, life feels pretty dull—just the same repetitive routines day after day. Then it hit me: maybe this is what growing up looks like?
I know the way I realized this feels a bit on the negative side, but I’m curious how others see growth. Has there ever been a moment when you suddenly felt like you weren’t the same person anymore? I use diaries to track my changes—what about you?
Thanks for your sharing, I am only 23 now. I still afraid of what will happen in the future. Maybe I am pessimistic. But now I am eager for finding a job which I would die for it as my life-career.
The future is scary and confusing. I’m still pretty scared about my future too but I just keep trying to do my best and put one foot in front of the other, moving towards things that will help me and not make my life harder.
Don’t worry about being pessimistic. “Good vibes only” it’s such a toxic approach - I prefer neutrality for things that I find a bit emotionally overwhelming… Just describing and identifying what I need to do about it, not worrying about if I see it as good or bad.
I hope you find your career! I love working in education and it probably brings me more happiness than anything. Do you know if you want to work with people, things, ideas or something else?