I’m really fearing being thrown into a hosptial, so ive been disassositing a lot at work, I definatly have anextity and dread about going to work, and I’m definatly burnt out. What feelsl ike 5 minutes to me is 30, and I’m genunily dealing with being disabled. My fear is if I dont say enough my leabe won’t be granted cause burnout isnt a reason to not go to work in the southern united states, meanwhile I worry if I say too much she will call up cops and I will be dragged to a hosptial and stay for 10 days and be immediately cleared to go work afterword not only defeating the purpose, but leaving me worse off than before. I keep feeling if I get 2 months off at least I can maybe formulate a plan to avoid burnout and get therpy. Vs if I get thrown in the mental hosptial , I will get kicked off medicaid following an income review, while I will likely be granted leave, it will be an unpaid week and I will immediately repeat this cycle.

I’m in louisana so I’m not exactly sure how broad the definition is of harm to myself, or like can she just say oh me going to work is self harm therfor throw me in the mental hosptial. Genunily conflicted on what to do here. My appointment is Monday. I’m going on telehealth so I doubt she will tell me if sue is going to call the cops, I’m sure they will just show up. Cause if she did, I’m gonna go out of town. Last time they nearly put me in the mens ward. I’m a trans women. The only reason they didn’t put me there is they were out of beds in the men’s ward.

I feel nervous cause I’m at the point where I will loose my job if I dont get supoort, ive had two documented conversations about performance. Next is a writeup than I’m fired for it.