I have a job and I go outside all the time. But I am so afraid of not being close to my car. I only ever make journeys where I’m in my car or somebody else’s and won’t be venturing too far from it. The fear of feeling stranded and unable to get into a car and go home is too much to bear.
I’ve struggled with agoraphobia and panic attacks on and off for my whole life, but the past 8 or so years I’ve been in a funk that I can’t seem to escape from. I can’t even go for a walk like normal people do because when I get too far from my house or my car, I start to have a panic attack. My legs are like jelly, I feel dizzy, and feel like I’m completely losing control of myself.
My friends, family, and work colleagues always go into the city on the bus or train for a few drinks & to socialise. But I never go because I’m afraid of being unable to escape. Buses and trains don’t help me because I can’t control where they’re going.
I’m so sick of being this way. I just wish I could do normal things and not feel so awful.
Are uber/taxis an option? You can control where they are going, would just having the apps be enough to give you peace of mind that you have an escape?
Does sound very frustrating and limiting though.
Unfortunately not. The only way I’d feel truly comforted by a taxi is if it could get right to my exact location within seconds. Having to wait around when I’m in a high stress situation also makes me worse, and minutes can feel like hours.
Ah, fair enough. That would certainly be very difficult to deal with then.
How do you feel about ebikes/escooters? Easy to get away, but they are a bit exposed.