China commanded the economy to shut down to implement the zero COVID policies, it likely saved the lives of millions of workers. That's not something any other continental capitalist country could even attempt, because in capitalist countries the market is in command. There were a few islands (or semi-islands like South Korea) which could boast similar successes, but they were clear outliers that benefited from not having land borders. The rest of us live at the whim of the market and we were all marched to our deaths.

That convinced me that actually existing socialism actually exists. It's not perfect, with many capitalist compromises and internal flaws, but politics are in command.

When I point out that you have to pick a side, you vacillate. You insist that there aren't any sides worth choosing so you can avoid dirtying your hands in the real world. You just retreat into the perfect socialism that does not exist and will only ever exist in your head. You have removed yourself from the struggle entirely. You might as well not even exist.