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lilypad [pup/pup's, it/its]

@ lilypad @hexbear.net

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  • Don't tell them who voices Kratos...

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  • Vit fóru til Miklagarðr ok ekki allr persónar veru hvítir! Hvat er sjá marksismr!? Furða!

    ::: spoiler spoiler I suck at norrønt, but supposed to say: we went to miklagard (Istanbul) and not every person was white! What is this marxsism!?¹ [this is] sillyness/bullshit!

    Pronounciation guide (approximate, idk true norrønt pronounciation, also norrønt was somewhat tonal and that isnt represented here. I also placed tapped r instead of rolled r where it made sense to me, but rolled r is i think appropriate everywhere):

    /vit/ /fuːɾʉ/ /til/ /miklagaɾðr/ /ɔ/ /eki/ /alr/ /peɾʃuːnar/ /veɾʉ/ /viːtiɾ/! /vat/ /ær/ /ʃaː/ /marksismr/!? /fʉɾða/!

    ¹ not meaning "what is this, marksism!?" But rather like "this is marxsism wtf!?". Word order implies meaning and grammar that can be hard to translate between languages. Its not a question of whether or not its marxism, its an assertion that it is marxism and an expression of outrage/frustration/wtf that gets formed as a question-sentence.

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  • Oh... Fuck. I should have stockpiled when i had the chance...

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  • We'll miss uuuuu

    but also totally understandable taking care of yourself is important

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  • Yayy! Hyperland is super fashy iirc, glad youve migrated!

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  • Have u tried teahrt? Iirc they ship internationally, out of the US, and maybe if its coming from there its less likely to get searched? The prog is little fishie suppositories so maybe even if they scan it theyll think its just candy or smth

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  • Itch means growing! Or at least has been associated with it for me

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  • ::: spoiler same cw This is so real. I didn't think id make it past 18, then i did, and didnt think id make it to 21, then i did. Eventually i realized i was trans at like 23, and thought oh ill live i guess? I made it this far and maybe life will be better now? And it is. But now im confronting the idea that theres an at least somewhat decent chance i dont make it past 50. But now its because of the world and not because im depressed and want to die. But when its bad/intense i still have that thought deep down that i was supposed to die at 16 (first attempt) and that im on borrowed time, that im not supposed to be here, and i feel guilty for existing.

    And coming out of all that, like, what do you even do with your life? I still dont have goals or know how to have goals, all the time i was supposed to be learning how to have goals i was deeply depressed and the goals meant nothing. They were something to do, not neccessarily something i wanted to achieve. I just float thru the world, except now its because im unsure how to even live a life, not because im trying to actively escape it.

  • The kitten was too shy to go to the door, but kept meowing on the wall until one of her owners heard her.

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  • These posts are hitting me so hard please never stop

  • Death to Texas

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  • Horrifying article, those conditions are atrocious. And they put his deadname in there at the end and use the noun "transgenders".

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  • arf...

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  • Idk. Just sad. Want cuddles and to be held. I feel like i have so many people in my life that its too much/too many, but i also feel like its not enough? Idk. My days are empty cause im unemployed, and i keep getting in my own way. Im not eating right and fluctuate in and out of eating a lot or not eating for a day or two and then eating way too much, and that probably doesnt help. Im just emotional these couple days, which... tracks. Idk. Im just sad rn. Im holding my plushies. I just want to be held and be small. I want the world to stop. I want to take a vacation from this existence and be somewhere that everything isnt happening. I feel socially incompetent and want to explain to people "yeah im not initiating interactions because im socially incompetent and have been burned too many times" but that also is really hard to do. Im feeling real dysphoric and idek why. I mean, i havent shaved in a couple days but like i cant shave every day that hurts my skin too much.

    I feel burned out but theres nothing to be burned out over... I spent the past few days and last week hyperfocused on programming and now i feel like shit and i think thats part of it. But like. Idk. I just want to be held.

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  • So, when i say without hormonal fluctuation, i mean they have consistent levels accross measurements and take their meds at the same time. E.g. if on pills they take at the samw times every day, if on injections the same day every week/every injection period. And they differentiate between "i feel bad cause its the day before shot day" and "i feel bad and i just took my shot (cycle stuff)". Idk if placebo is whats happening and i hesitate to say its a solid guess, because trans people are told its all in our heads literally every day.

    The causes of cycles are imo multifold and hormones comprise one aspect of it. I have no study to back it up. But we understand so little about the human body and how its various systems function together, that to me it would seem likely that theres multiple things at play.

    Regarding your edit, that study would be useless. The participants would, assuming you could actually control for cis men and not closeted trans people, be terribly skewed by the resultant dysphoria imo.

    Im also generally against studying trans people in general at this point. Study after study is, even when neutral or in favor of gender affirming care, used to deny us healthcare and deny us who we are. I dont trust the medical and research institutions. I care far more what my community experiences than whether or not its "real" or "valid" according to some study.

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  • GL finding a study, trans womens healthcare and transition related healthcare in general is really understudied. Its not got money in it, its disregarded as fundamentally wrong by a lot of people, and in general society tends not to care about us or wants to force us into our agab, leading to terribly harmful "studies" and reports. If you do find a study on this, please share it cause i would love to read it. I know anecdotally some people (without hormone fluctuations) experience this and some dont, but actually understanding the biological processes of this absent a hormonal fluctuation would be really cool

  • Workshop your headlines in real time with the NYT

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  • Douthat? More like Dukat! They say he'll make Gul at the NYT soon.

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  • ::: spoiler spoiler

    this is so beautiful, im so happy youre moving through life without the parts of it that hurt you, that you love yourself and your life. You deserve to live a life full of joy :happy-cry:

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  • Omg yayyyyy!!! Pretty nails, smooth skin, AND estrogen!?

  • Are women bourgeois?

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  • When i wasA young boyMy fatherTook me into the cityTo see the working place

    He saidSon whenYou grow upWill you beThe savior of the brokenAnd banish all the girls?

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  • I love this paper! Its one i come back to and is really good! Someone posted it in the mega before and it absolutely should get its own post

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  • I jumped around a lot from name to name. Eventually i found a word root/stem that i really liked and and was meaningful for me, and added an ending that to me sounded feminine. It took me like 3 months of considering the stem and endings together.