That's actually very promising - as horrifying as the ordeal leading here was, I'm glad you finally know more. Given the size description (I have a family member with a similar history), I sincerely hope you won't have much trouble getting the hysterectomy approved. Age wise alone you should qualify without much issue. I'm keeping my fingers crossed for you, sweetheart, and I hope you'll get relief from your pain soon, though I know it won't be tomorrow.
I don't want to drag it all here to our safe space, so I'll say there was/is a new struggle session. I don't recommend checking it out, but if you want to, look into the Code of Conduct post that's pinned.
I understand where that's coming from, and it gets harder every time. But just trying to look for a way through it already makes you so strong. You're persevering, and you keep on doing so <3
I wish I could help you, love, but I want you to know you're not alone with that feeling. Usually, I revert to listening to old music or watch old movies and shows that used to make me feel comfortable, it's the only way I can get through these feelings. You're doing everything you can, sweetheart
You are neither soft nor weak. You're human, in the best sense, because the thought of sacrificing millions to the economy should make everyone sick. Don't be too hard on yourself, your reaction was right
American Football or soccer? I think either could be funny!