I'll take one idiot that's trying their hardest over a dozen smug geniuses that won't lift a finger to help.
Nobody will ever make you proud of yourself. You are the only person that can do that. If you're not willing to try, please let me know and I'll stop wasting my time.
We need a revolution. We need help. It's time to put up or shut up.
"the true revolutionary is guided by a great feeling of love. It is impossible to think of a genuine revolutionary lacking this quality." - Che Guevara
Why are you posting this? What do you want?
Nobody here can make you care. We can't open your heart for you. I find this talk inspiring, but I'm sure you'll find reasons not to like it. Don't bother telling me them, I don't care.
If you don't like people, then people won't like you. Frankly, your post makes me not like you. I assume that you're posting because you're looking for help, though, and I want to help you, but I see you batting away help and I don't really want to put in effort if you won't.
You wanna wallow in sadness? Fine, but don't expect others to drag you out. In the future, I'd ask that you clearly indicate that you're not looking for advice.
In a just world, discovering that you're trans would be a time of celebration. Your community would gather around you to help support you in whatever way they could. It would still be a long and difficult journey, but the path would be clear and you would not go alone.
I'm so sorry that you feel like there is no hope. My heart breaks for you. Please know that I value your life.
I know the road is hard.I know you feel you can not make it.I'm begging you to try.
I'm asking you to look within yourself and find something worth fighting for.
A woman, whose life has just begun.Your friends, who need you just as you need them.A human, that has endured immense suffering and is still fucking standing.
You inspire me.
Hell, fight just to outlive your enemies.
I don't know you, but I know you are a human, and because of that I know you can make it.
I know you can stare down suicidal thoughts.I know you can face the hate.I know you can handle the dysphoria.
You already have.
Your journey is long, but we are with you. The path is obscured, but many here have navigated it before. It will be slow, but it WILL get better.
It may not be that useful for you, but I made a blog post of my stream of conciseness during a manic episode that's a bit of a battlecry. It's... certainly unhinged, but you may find some inspiration from it.
No problem! I hope that you're able to find a job and can keep your house, but it's nice that you have your parents to fall back on if it doesn't work out.
Fwiw, I've given up on dating and it's been very good for my mental health. I was spending a lot of time trying to find an SO, but lately I've been putting that time into hobbies instead and have been much happier. If I bump into someone, I'm open to dating, but that's not the goal (or the desire, even. Dating is a lot of work)
Obviously, that may not be an option for you, but something to consider.
Woof. Yeah that's tough :/ I'm sorry you're feeling so low. Congrats on the temp gig though!
have to live with my parents as a 30 year old
Is this mostly a pride thing, or are your parents bad people?
No one I can talk to
Fear not! You have access to dozens, maybe even HUNDREDS of terminally online communists!
No real motivation to even try anymore
Burnout is the devil. I hope you can recharge
within the last few days I've come to question my sexuality
Exciting!!! That does seem like a challenging situation re: not being a chaser, and honestly idk the answer. The fact that you're worried about being one is a good sign, though! Maybe ask here how to respectfully date trans women?
My (cishet) opinion is that you should try it out if you're able. As long as it's between consenting adults, there's no "wrong" sexuality, and never questioning the default is lame.
I can only see it getting worse and that's what gets me
Yeah... that'd get me too. By "it" do you mean your specific situation, or things in general?
If it's the former, at least you have a whole new world of sexuality to explore!
If it's the latter, I've made a couple posts about my optimism, but I understand the call of doomerism.
"What do you do?" may have the connotation of being about work, but the literal words are actually a great conversation starter. You are falling into the same trap if you answer "nothing" because you don't do wage labor.
You don't do nothing! How dare you!!
You organize online!You learn about socialism!You're working your ass off to try to get healthier!You need to rest and recover more than some folks, but that's not nothing!
If you want to change the culture, answer the literal question, not the question they think they're asking.
If they follow up with "I meant for work," then give them a face and say you can't work bc of your disability. Simple as.
Organizing people is just as important, if not more.
What is "organizing" beyond education?
Yes, there needs to be material action behind it, and I'm saying that there already is, it just needs to be pointed in the right direction.
A hundred million people are frothing at the mouth to deport as many people as possible, and I submit that it is not out of hate.
WHY does "immigrants are poisoning the blood of this country" resonate with people?
It is not because they really really hate Mexicans. Some do, of course, but not enough to build a mass movement.
It resonates with people because the blood of this country IS poisoned. This country is possessed by a demon, and it needs an exorcism. And people feel this.
And they are trying to fix it.
They are organized.They are taking material actions.They are willing to sacrifice.
Capital sees this happening, and it is terrified. It NEEDS to direct revolutionary energy away from itself, and so it conjures up a boogeyman.
It needs to be something pervasive, but immaterial. Something ubiquitous, yet divisive.
A fight that must never end.
It needs to split the people in two, point them at each other, and let them take their revolutionary energy out on each other. The two sides should be perfectly balanced so no that no real progress is ever made, but also unstable so that each side feels like it might be able to win if it just tries a little harder.
Democrats get too powerful? No problem, whip up some hate for a minority on fox news. Republicans get too powerful? No problem, time to run some stories on hate crimes.
Every presidential election is close. Elections swing back and forth every few years.
That's not a coincidence. That's evidence.
I don't like it any more than you do, but MAGA is part of the revolutionary class, and we need to start acting like it.
Finally, the internet is not a direct line of communication to everyone. It reaches only a specific demographic. You can't rely solely on it to build a mass movement.
The greatest trick the devil ever pulled.
It is literally, materially a direct line of communication to everyone. It is a revolution in communication on par with the printing press.
CAPITAL has built the internet into echo chambers.CAPITAL told us that we hate each other.CAPITAL has algorithmically split us into factions that do not talk to each other.
What would Lenin have been able to accomplish if What Is To Be Done? could have been published online?How much more effective would the movement have been if he had a YouTube channel?What if the greatest minds across Europe at the time could have hopped on a video call to discuss strategy?What if the soviets had a subreddit?
More than anything, this pattern is caused by patriarchy.
Racism is obviously at play, but it only adds flavor. Someone mentioned people mourning the loss of "big booty latinas," the operative words are clearly "big booty." It'd only be slightly less gross if they said "big booty women."
The patriarchal belief that many people have is "all else equal, attractive women have more value than unattractive women."
Patriarchy encourages infinite debate on exactly how much value a women's attractiveness has, and the common belief is that very attractive women are highly valued.
"Would you rather sleep with a 10 or two 6s?"
These pictures are only interesting to chuds because western media has systematically dehumanized folks the middle east so that our governments could attack them without public backlash.
They have been propagandized to believe that people in the middle east have no value, and these pictures challenge that.
Ultimately, these pictures are weaponizing patriarchy against imperialism. "Oh my god, I didn't realize we were bombing something of value" is a realization that more folks needs to have, but it's really icky that this was an effective way to do it.
I choose to believe the OP made an intentional decision to do that, and the fact that it caught on means that it worked.
If the goal is that more folks see people in the middle east as humans with value, I'll excuse leveraging people's existing shitty beliefs to do so.
The ends justify the means, but the means justify a shower.
Stop being a dick.
It does not make your arguments better, and it makes you look like a child.