DeathByBigSad

[鳳凰院凶真 Hououin Kyouma]|[alt: 黃家駒 Wong Ka Kui] @sh.itjust.works 1d ago

Bruh, literally just posted a question about germaphobia then I see this... 😭

I feel like the universe is taunting me.

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[鳳凰院凶真 Hououin Kyouma]|[alt: 黃家駒 Wong Ka Kui] @sh.itjust.works 2d ago

Wait you can rent them?

Hmm I kinda wanna cosplay as a rich person for a day lol

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[鳳凰院凶真 Hououin Kyouma]|[alt: 黃家駒 Wong Ka Kui] @sh.itjust.works 2d ago

Lets be real:

Some people value "success" and status over ethics.

Like my mom doesn't even care if I become a souless CEO that fund wars, as long as its "legal", there wouldn't be any stigma.

Like some people just like the idea of a "winner"

You are a pro-democracy activist that got arrested? Loser, disgrace to the family.

You lead a successful rebellion? OMG that's my son! 我感到好驕傲阿! (I'm so proud of you!)

Yea anyways, now I'll renegate on my promises and send secret police to crush dissidents, mom would approve and be like "they deserved it, they are threatening my son's right to rule".

Hypothetically speaking of course, I'll never do dictator stuff, not like I even got a chance to do it.

[鳳凰院凶真 Hououin Kyouma]|[alt: 黃家駒 Wong Ka Kui] @sh.itjust.works 2d ago

What the fuck did you just say to me you little shit? I'll have you know that I graduated top of my class in Lemmy online debates.... (etc...)

😉

[鳳凰院凶真 Hououin Kyouma]|[alt: 黃家駒 Wong Ka Kui] @sh.itjust.works 2d ago

1 - Is it even religious anymore? My extended family aren't even christian or like take religions seriously in anyway afaik (context: Chinese Americans, but I have like some uncles from HK), they still "celebrate" christmas as a sort of "oh its another year and the calandar is says its a holiday so I guess we should um... do something?" type of thing, like an excuse to get together or something.

2&3 - When I was a kid, I'd want stuff but rarely get stuff lol. My cousins all have like Wiis and DS and all the fun stuff... so spending time with them just reminded me of how much stricter my parents are with "no video games because it's unproductive and waste of time" and also reminded me that we are lower on the wealth-social status than them and we're poorer. Honestly I don't even have any of these "gifts" that are memorable, that how much my brain didn't care to remember.

4 - Lol you could just skip that part. Who cares, have some random lighting and call it a day lol. I never even had a chrismas tree.

6 - Yea, I had cousins that are assholes since they feel so privilaged about their birthright citizenship. They be playing with their Nintendo DS or something and I had nothing... so I was always an outcast... I get it... I remember I always wanted to go home when in a relative's house. I have like memories just watching cousins play games while I felt sad and bored and my sould kinda died inside lol. Like loneliness in a big crowd. The only one I could relate to was my older brother... my abusive older brother who I had fights with a lot...

7 - Holiday music makes me cringe, and I feel anxious af... idk why

[鳳凰院凶真 Hououin Kyouma]|[alt: 黃家駒 Wong Ka Kui] @sh.itjust.works 2d ago

More like: ■■■■ ■■■ is the CEO of Proton AG

[鳳凰院凶真 Hououin Kyouma]|[alt: 黃家駒 Wong Ka Kui] @sh.itjust.works 2d ago

Forgot if I had anything more relevent, but Recency Bias: I'm currentlt watching this Taiwan TV show called: 你的孩子不是你的孩子

It's about dysfunctional families... like my own.

(Still haven't finished watching yet)

The show is slightly more extreme than my reality, but there are various parts that I find very relevent... like the way parents talk to their kids... parent-child dynamics...

It has some aspects from each episode that feels like my family, not exactly the same, but it resonates. The main difference is it being in Mandarin, instead of Cantonese that I speak at home.

[鳳凰院凶真 Hououin Kyouma]|[alt: 黃家駒 Wong Ka Kui] @sh.itjust.works 2d ago

Why is 二百五 (250) not on there lol

[鳳凰院凶真 Hououin Kyouma]|[alt: 黃家駒 Wong Ka Kui] @sh.itjust.works 2d ago

T (time)

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[鳳凰院凶真 Hououin Kyouma]|[alt: 黃家駒 Wong Ka Kui] @sh.itjust.works 2d ago

Does midrange being at 8GB mean that entry level will be 4GB? because I know corpos are gonna be corpos.

(I don't think windows even run at 4GB lmfao)

Edit: Also, this RAM shortage might force people to use Linux 😁

[鳳凰院凶真 Hououin Kyouma]|[alt: 黃家駒 Wong Ka Kui] @sh.itjust.works 2d ago

Wtf this creeped me out lol

[鳳凰院凶真 Hououin Kyouma]|[alt: 黃家駒 Wong Ka Kui] @sh.itjust.works 2d ago

Pfff, who needs doctors? I'm clearly way smarter than those pretentious "doctors"

/s

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[鳳凰院凶真 Hououin Kyouma]|[alt: 黃家駒 Wong Ka Kui] @sh.itjust.works 2d ago

Not really an answer, but just for context:

My family is from China and my mom is very skeptical of doctors and medications way before we cane to the US, so this isn't a US-Specific issue. I think its caused by bad experiences with doctors and/or the system overall, so the sentiment just spread by word of mouth.

My mom was very afraid that medicine would harm the fetus, so she told me that she did not like take any medications, like for example, painkillers or like flu medicine stuff, when she had me or my older brother. Also she said she breastfed us because she didn't trust baby formulas.

As for vaccinations, we did get them... I think its because its like government policy and everyone just accepted it. Maybe because viruses were scarier so parents just relented and accepted (in their view) the risks of side effects of vaccinations.

(Edit: Also, I'm pretty sure the US would never let us immigrate if we didn't have vaccinations, so that is a reason too)

But now, years later...

my problem is... I have depression and my mom is skeptical that I even have depression, and then simultaneously think I'm faking it and them also simultaneously thinks of me as having a disability like autism or something...

No mom wtf, (1) depression is not autism, (2) even if I did had autism, it doesn't mean you can just abandon me as if you never had me.

I had Lexapro for a short time before discontinuing, and because it went untreated, it got worse, so my mom is blaming the doctor for the, what she calls, a "misdiagnosis" (emphasis on the quotes, because I 100% know I'm depressed) and that its Lexapro's side effects that made me depressed.

And I'm a dependent and still young enough to be on their insurance (cutoff is like 26 I think), and the fear they instilled in me now make me second guess which psychatrist I can even trust, so now I'm like weeks into searching and still haven't made an appointment because of decision fatugue and so I procrastinated...

Political situation makes me wanna go outside even less... and also Covid made me Germophobic so I'm kinda scared to go outside...

so yea...

Edit: Also, while they did get the Covid Vaccine, but they didn't wanna go first, they waited like a few months until other people got it, because they are waiting to see if the, what they say as "lab rats" (the people who got vaccinated the earliest) have side effects, and if no bad news happens, then they'll get vaccinated.

But I had a cousin that had a negative reaction to the 2nd dose of Pfizer so my mom panicked lol. But they already got the 2nd dose by then. If they had not, then my mom said she was considering to like not get vaccinated because of that story abouty cousin.

[鳳凰院凶真 Hououin Kyouma]|[alt: 黃家駒 Wong Ka Kui] @sh.itjust.works 2d ago

Tor Browser so I can feel like a hacker xD

(.world blocks Tor btw, not jolly at all)

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[鳳凰院凶真 Hououin Kyouma]|[alt: 黃家駒 Wong Ka Kui] @sh.itjust.works 2d ago

Not just bots tho. There are some real users that are just paranoid. Go back to any old asklemmy or NSQ question and you see the (-5) in comments, people run scripts to delete old comments. It's the norm here.

I don't blame them tho. If its like older than 7 days, and you haven't saved the info, I'd say it's fair game for the original user to delete it.

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[鳳凰院凶真 Hououin Kyouma]|[alt: 黃家駒 Wong Ka Kui] @sh.itjust.works 2d ago

I actually think it's a great way to teach kids why religions are lies lol

Also make you start doubting every authority figure

At least that's the case for me.