i'm picking this back up days later, i've got that gold-tier subscription to social anxiety ([...] i just felt bad leaving you on read!)

Especially on the goofy forum, dw about it. I try not to "YOU LEFT ME ON READ" people, chats gotta end and on bearsite they're like, emphemeral Idk. People just move on, y'know.

like you said it's hard to perceive anything reliably, doubly so when you're inside the thing you're trying to get a view of.

I gotta get out of the thing

you can only get your view of how it went and only in that one moment. you never know when your words are running through someone's mind totally unbidden.

Can you imagine the things I say living rent-free in anybody's head? Literally who??? Not possible lmao. Mostly when I go to yap, I have more of a specific idea in mind to yap about, like some idle thought about a gender thing bites at my mind for a week and then I yap. Yappist...

talking her into accepting that a given situation went fine (and that if it hadn't, there'd be some kind of blatant sign rather than one she had to go hunting for) has sort of forced my brain into the same kind of thought patterns when i start to suffer from "did i have a bad interaction" syndrome.

Should I... give my better half hardcore anxiety so I can fix mine?

I wish I could just medicate this shit but sertraline, gabapentin, wellbutrin, tons of stuff that either didn't work or had side effects as ugly as what they were treating. Idk what I'll do longterm.

In This House we adore that girl, wherever she is. and yeah, i've seen some of your subsequent posts. :< i'm sorry things are so rough in your life.

Hey some good things happened today so there's that =) as far as being scatter brained again don't worry about it, you're fine. I was like Rad, another message!