I think about Alan Watts when he talks about how wanting to be rid of the situation is part of the pain. Like the blister after touching a hot stove, the waiting is part of the grief.
Perhaps it's what people meant when they say "it's okay to not be okay". Because there's no trick to the pain and you have your own way of grieving. It always finds you, either now or walking down a sunny street on a beautiful day


"according to our studies, being trans is a valid expression of self"
"That can't be!"
"It appears we did the Tuskegee experiment all over again"
"If what you're saying is true, then even if we recognize them now in this hypothetical, it's not a funny, positive outcome because people were harmed needlessly!"
"Yes, but since we're hypothetical, does anything we do matter?"
"I guess not"
They kiss gayly