HexaSnoot

HexaSnoot [none/use name] @hexbear.net 1周前

I hope you hair as close to Rapunzel's as you want by next winter. Biotin helps grow out nails and hair faster btw.

HexaSnoot [none/use name] @hexbear.net 1周前

I find eating protein before trying out sweets helps me cut sugar way down.

HexaSnoot [none/use name] @hexbear.net 1周前

Even if someone only digs fems, they can like more than one kind of fem people. There's cis people, trans people, twinks, etc... Many fans of fems like fems in general. It's possibly not true of this guy, but who knows? Do you know they only like cis-looking women, or did you assume that?

HexaSnoot [none/use name] @hexbear.net 1周前

The more I think about it, the more it feels like self-preservation to come out.

I feel like that's the only way I'll come out. If it feels more like self preservation than risk of being hurt.

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HexaSnoot [none/use name] @hexbear.net 1周前

It's interesting how we can research things we're going through without even being concious of the fact that we're researching our strange life experiences that are happening/have happened to us. I had no clue I was genderfluid until I found out Dorian Electra was not doing drag, but rather a person who went by "they/them." I got obsessed with their fun music videos and it led me to understanding myself more. They're the reason I finally internalized they/them as real pronouns. I respectfully called people they/them before, but i didn't really get it until Dorian showed me a strong example.

The lyrics to "Ocean" are a beautiful and romantic vision where LJG is clearly free and in love as a cis woman, and I love it.

I'll slowly check out the album "Searching for a Former Clarity."

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HexaSnoot [none/use name] @hexbear.net 1周前

CW: violence

Are violent assholes just gonna do violence regardless of how you look? Because that's how my past bully was, they claimed I deserved it when, looking back, I didn't. They just get off on controlling and hurting people.

Should I just stop watching how much pretty privilege armour I put on and be just as I am because violent people will always find an excuse to do with they want, regardless of reason? At the same time, transphobes and homophobes would notice me more... IDK, I guess I need help weighing pros and cons of being masc-ish.

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HexaSnoot [none/use name] @hexbear.net 1周前

I could use some encouragement and validation. (Maybe discussion on pros and cons too.) I'm afraid people won't see me as pretty anymore because I'm fatter than I've ever been and I'm thinking about really masculinizing my look.

Letting go of pretty girl privileges is hard when you've already had a lot of people disrespect you in general. I have issues with being passive, so people who hate themselves love to self project on me. People who pick apart women might pick me apart for showing off my manly side. And for being fat while at it.

Being a pretty boy is the vibe I like to have when manlier, I think I like the safety of checking off some "pretty people" boxes that go with societal expectations advertised in magazines. When in reality feeling good about how you look is more about the attitude of feeling cute than how close you look to what you see in magazines. I think I mostly dread not feeling cute because I'm afraid of how others might perceive me and put me down. Trying to seek social "safety" by looking as much like a magazine image as possible was how I felt the most insecure, and I'm doing it right now. Not at the level I used to, but I still am doing it.

For others seeking safety can mean passing on their own shame about their looks, and seeing a gender bender who's fat could either be freeing or lead to them choosing to double down and pass on their feelings of shame.

CW: violence

I've suffered violence over how I look before, and I don't want to get hurt again over daring myself to check off a box that would lead a past violent bully to criticize me. This person hurt me for years, but it's also been years since I last saw them. Checking off "pretty people" boxes feels like armor against violent shit, and I'm not sure how much faith I have that no violence will happen if I drop the armor.

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HexaSnoot [none/use name] @hexbear.net 1周前

Skipping around your list. So far I really like Blue Foster's "IDK if I'm a Boy." I love to see Laura Jane Grace be confident and show that female singing voices can sound like however a female sounds like.

Laura's confidence reminds me of something sad.

Listening to Laura is healing. I knew a very unconfident trans woman who I was told loved loudly singing in the past. Knew her for years and never ended up hearing her sing. I stopped talking to her because she was a huge downpuncher with fash values who took her insecurities out on everyone she could. Once she expressed that it's hard to be a conservative trans person. It would've been nice if she was compassionate and a flourishing, loud singer like Laura. Oh well, at least now I got Laura in my playlist.

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HexaSnoot [none/use name] @hexbear.net 1周前

Yeah you can list more if you want. Thank you.

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HexaSnoot [none/use name] @hexbear.net 1周前

Are you in the US?

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HexaSnoot [none/use name] @hexbear.net 1周前

I want white people to be liberated of their own whiteness. I feel bad for them. I think this is partially possible, but not completely possible.

Once a white person got drunk and cried while talking to me about hating being white. They cannot escape the fact that their upbringing is sterilized of culture from far more ancient ancestors. They resent the fact that their later ancestors cut ties with their own ancestral culture, and made their deal about erasing other people. Still, they can try their best to learn about the side opposing imperialism and to respect everyone that their ancestors spun up race conspiracies about. To not perpetuate white supremacy propaganda.

They may not be able to stop being white, but they can get rid of certain aspects of whiteness. Not just in behavior because that would just be acting nice, but at the roots in their belief system. They can stop downpunching in every way they spot it.

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HexaSnoot [none/use name] @hexbear.net 1周前

I'm not sure what a litmus test is in this context, but if they only said "they give immigrants a bad name" about any race, they failed a test.

Does the US have anything to do with the gold rush in Somalia? I think I read something about a civil war over gold deposits in Africa happening.

HexaSnoot [none/use name] @hexbear.net 1周前

Maybe it's because you feel like you have more of a chance at further changing your life. And that you're excited you found a small way to treat yourself better.

HexaSnoot [none/use name] @hexbear.net 1周前

Yeah i don't know all the nonbinary terms. I just know mine, genderfluid. Just because I didn't fully do my homework on all the nonbinary terms doesn't mean i don't know which one I am.

Btw, I would love know know all the nonbinary terms by heart, but I can't seem to have the terms solidly stick in my memory. I'm overwhelmed while reading them all.

HexaSnoot [none/use name] @hexbear.net 1周前

Or it's flavored with the oil extracted from fruits or something

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HexaSnoot [none/use name] @hexbear.net 2周前

I occasionally notice in the media that some Chinese people call women "sister." Is that a well known enough tendency to the point a Chinese person could call a black person "sister" and have it understood that it's being used differently than black people typically use it? Or in reality might it be taken offensively?