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  • This is SO insane. I wonder in my case how something could have been done sooner. The suffering has been going on undiagnosed and untreated for at least 35 years.

    One thing that would have helped is if either a teacher or my parent who is a teacher would have been like: Ok, maybe 5 % chance of attention disorder, check it out please.

    Sometimes, I suspect that a teacher got it and reported it to my parents, who angrily rejected it. There was a weird conflict between them and a teacher that made no sense, because I got along with that teacher, and what little I got was him "talking shit", yet he was the most thoughtful and scientific of them.

    Another option: Just do a "full checkup" on people starting early in life, even for things where no indication has been reported. The vicious cycle of doctor visits: Patient comes, reports symptom -> questions -> tests -> whatever going on in their minds -> diagnosis. It doesn't work, at all. I feel like overall, a lot of money would be saved in the global economy (nobody cares for saved suffering anyway) if the procedure for things were: Doctor attempts treatment if it seems simple just once, if it fails, go full Doctor House. Might overall save money. All the negative findings from this would be a goldmine of information, and saved money, for 1 or 2 decades of doctor visits.

    For ADHD, why doesn't everybody do a multiple choice test, not wasting any trained professional's time if it is clearly very negative? Further steps only if it is not very clearly negative.

    And at some point, after decades of this, they pick up on what it caused, rather than the ADHD itself. The result of other people and yourself telling you that you are just an assclown who can't handle your own household, appointments, education, job.

    In hindsight, the earliest that I presented something to a doctor that should have lead to ADHD, if investigated with full force, were gut / digestion problems in the 90s. 2000s, I came to a doctor for a sick note as things at a crappy workplace got "too much", got benzos, which helped through the worst. I often used the "too much" phrase over the next 2 decades, usually met with benzos or "can't really do anything with that phrase".

    They study so long, shouldn't there be question techniques that get to the bottom of things? Even with a psychiatrist, when I said really clearly what was going on from my perspective, they were like: Wow, that doesn't help at all, can't do anything with that information. The way things are, you have to self-diagnose, then find out how to nudge them in the right direction by saying the right things.

  • What really works for me to have my cake and eat it: I keep doomscrolling / watching until a time I set, with the extra bonus that it's guilt-free.

    E. g. I have to sleep and it's already 30 minutes late, and I'm watching a video. 10 minutes later doesn't matter now, so I turn off the guilt and pressure completely and really enjoy watching another 10 minutes, then go to bed.

    Result: A lot of my time is still spent procrastinating, but I also get like 50 % done of what I should get done, rather than 0 %. And procrastinating is a lot more fun without the guilt.

  • Oh yes, I remember all those guides and methods about procrastination, the procrastination monkey etc. In the end, if you need to try and evaluate all the methods, and chain the dozen that work best, just to start your laundry, the most important method becomes: Check for mental problems. Could be a depression causing that, could be ADHD, could be something else.

  • Well 60 mg is still not stronger than a fat line of speed, which people usually survive, and you have the extra benefit that they checked you for heart and other problems that would change the odds.

    Consider that the half-life is long, so 24h later, you'd still have the equivalent of 1/4 of the extra 30 mg, so you should take about 7 mg less, which would be about 23 mg. NAM (not a mathematician).

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  • Yes, an absolutely infuriating city dweller question. Even in this day and age, you work in a bakery and live in a village, you have a pitchfork. Maybe your daughter has a pony, maybe you have a grassed area that gets cut with a sickle.

  • In your case, it seems like daily intake is necessary to avoid these everyday problems. For myself, it would already help a lot to have like 2x3 hours per week when everything gets done.

    My insurance would actually pay, but it's a painful process, so I'm paying everything out of pocked, in addition to nearly EUR 1k insurance premiums.

  • Neurotypicals think they have this superior discipline and attitude to "get on the task", and I believed them, too! Now, medicated, I realise that they only work on these constant dopamine micro rewards in their prefrontal cortex. Which I now get, too.

  • I developed this unique tea leaf / tree bark mix over 20 years ago, and I could swear it changed my life. I studied for 14 hours per day sometimes and absorbed all my training within a few years. Then the effect was gone.

    Looking at it objectively, maybe the trick was that it had just the right amount of caffeine, but unlike pure black tea, not too much at once and with a lot of water. Possibly also compensating a micro nutrient deficit. Could also be complex indirect effects, e. g.: ADHD related to gut biome, additional problems due to bad bacteria / yeast overrepresented, medicinal plants in the mix fighting that, to a mild degree.

    Treating digestion problems with medicinal tea in combination with caffeine and love for black tea started the whole idea, IIRC, so it's not entirely impossible.

  • Erectile Dysfunction?

  • Dude, that's me on meds, fully cured. Need more unused cables, 3 keyboards (although there are only 2 computers), the old broken mouse, hand lotion, tooth picks, several old food wrappings / jars, important letters all in between, a folding rule, dental floss (where the heck DO you even floss?), mosquito spray, new envelopes, masks, used envelopes with "important" hand-written notes, several pens half of which work, expired credit / insurance cards, vitamins, Covid tests and test wrappers, where is your cup and glass for water?, ironically a duster, 1 extra 1st gen TFT screen from 1999 that's not attached to anything, who knows what's underneath.

  • Could also be that in times of remission, we take on more challenges: Start dating again, get pregnant, challenging new job to pay for it all. Or challenging career change, get a degree, get training.

    And that would not be newsworthy at all.

  • It can take time to find the right dose.

    I even started with 5 mg only, and it felt great. Crashed after just 3 - 4 hours, and within the first week figured that 12 mg is right for now.

    The individual differences can be enormous.

    This guide to understand dosage finding is pretty good, but doctor's orders first: https://www.adxs.org/en/page/232/dosing-of-medication-for-adhd

  • I think it's not that crazy: It also increases dopamine and noradrenaline in other parts of the brain, too, so in higher doses, it would be a "great" recreational drug, similar to speed. The brain quickly adjusts to the relatively small dose, so it doesn't feel like a recreational drug any more (unless a lot more is taken), and only the prefrontal cortex still "benefits" from the increased levels of dopamine and noradrenaline, as intended.

    So, the initial high is not the intended effect, just a pleasant side effect, and always fades. Otherwise, we could all happily live on recreational drugs all day.

    The numbing effect on the emotions, on the other hand, could be the INTENDED effect, just way too strong. Need to take much less, for some people even as low as 5 mg.

    So you might have gotten the intended effect and the side effect mixed up: You don't want the initial 2 week high, you do want the numbing, but much less of it.

    That is my VERY limited layman understanding, certainly at least partially wrong. Maybe it's also hilariously wrong, who knows.

  • It's compatible with benzos, so for rare occurrences, like a few times per year, that's an option.

    In my particular case, a magnesium deficit had been missed for a very long time.

  • In relationships, that's a problem. Over the years, that really developed into ... something. When I have a crush and daydream, I imagine how she comes onto me, and I'm like: Sorry, not interested.

    Sometimes that actually happens, and it does feel great.

    Even when I daydream about meeting a cute girl with a nice personality, I imagine how she likes me, so I can reject her.

    The oddest thing is that I still had a couple of healthy, nice relationships, some over many years. She was always more into me than vice versa, though. And I was overall single longer than I was in relationships.

    So maybe the counterpart personality exists, and that's why it works: Longing to always having to prove herself to someone who isn't even that attractive, just for getting a fraction of it back.

  • Great list! I use a plain txt file that I started about 25 years ago for notes, now 28,000 lines. It used to contain even all passwords, until password managers became a good option.

  • "Being bad at stuff" is also so selective. The other kids are not expected to be two years ahead in math, but I am expected to be able to sit perfectly still for 4 hours and pay attention in an oxygen depleted room. Everybody has to have this nearly exact same skillset.

    It's not what society needs, not even what the industry needs in the workforce, but that is most convenient for the teachers.

  • Indeed, I programmed in vim only, until IDEs just got too good. Still using it for everything else to this day. I've been thinking to get Neovim, but it doesn't seem essential when I stick with IDEs for programming.

    I tried Eclipse way back around 2004, but found the advantages not sufficient to make do with a crappy editor. Years after that, IntelliJ IDEA just got too good to miss out on, though. It also had the feature that is essential for me to understand anything: To search for an action rather than click through & stare at endless menus.

  • I get 0 done without lists. People laugh about my lists, because every tiny detail has to be on it. So let's say I'm in the situation you described, and it's 10:30 am. What I'd tell myself is: There isn't even a list, so let's make a list, and if it's the last thing I'll do before lunch.

    The list is quite often as detailed as:

    • decide which task / ticket to work on
      • ask coworker for advice what is suitable
    • assign myself to the task
    • read the task start to end
    • understand the task
    • reproduce the problem (if it's like a bug that needs fixing) ... and so on

    Then, even in my worst state, I can tell myself: You can check off just the next item. That's not overwhelming, that's not too much.