Surprisingly, every-single-time I believe that I will for the rest of my life do the thing on time, incrementally and with no effort. Especially after a long cleaning effort. Sure, of course I will now always do a little bit every day, and the way the place looks now will be how I will always live ...
With treatment, this is finally a reality. And just now I realise how ridiculous the idea was to do it like that before. My brain plans as if it were healthy, it's really weird.
Caffeine Free Coca Cola is a thing, as I have read, although I never saw it in a store.
Same life-changing effect with Vyvanse for me. Did you stop all caffeine, even black tea? In combination, that can really get your heart racing.
Good question, and my mistake might have been that I asked straightforward: Do you feel better with meds? Do you like school better? Is it easier to get on a task such as cleaning your room?
He always says: No difference.
Maybe I should ask like: "How interesting was school today?" and then see how it correlates with meds.
I had a similar experience when I was much older. I had ONE good math teacher in 14 years, had him 5-6 and then again 11-12. Strange is that it took me a while to realise how good he is. I just wondered: Why is math so boring all through the grades 7-10, although it is so awesome otherwise?
So, maybe he does feel and grow better, but doesn't realise it. But there is no proof. Only proof is that he is sedated, which makes the teachers happy, but that was not the goal.
I too suspect that the doc will have him try a lower dose again. Odd with lower doses was that even just 6 hours later, therapist and I saw 0 effect, and that is unlikely with slow-release; should be at least some left. Due to that, the doc decided to give the teacher's observation (who said low is fine) less weight and increase anyway.
The problem really is that this is not an exact science when applied to individuals. Day A, teacher says he's doing great, well maybe it's because it was a classmate's birthday and he brought cupcakes, and in German they were just reading an interesting story. I say 15 mg sedates him like an elephant tranquilizer gun, but maybe he was just very tired that day.
My fear is that this might drag on for months and years, and on the way, we'll give up what would have been the solution just because it was applied on a few bad days.
And really infuriating is that in all this that they couldn't even give him consistently the same exact meds! EUR / USD 1100 / month insurance premium and he can't have his 20 cents pill!
I hope they find something better for you! Lisdexamfetamine fixes my motivation, to get started on a task, and my focus completely, but I'm super confused as always. And since I do 10x as many things with my fixed motivation, I make 10x as many mistakes. Joe Biden on speed, basically.
While I do hope for something that fixes the other things, my quality of life has improved tenfold. But for my child, it seems to just make life for the teachers easier by sedating him, and that's not worth it. What are they getting paid for?
Don't worry about Mg, all he ever eats is fries 😂
Research shows overall better outcome with medication, if indicated. Fewer mental problems in adulthood etc.
That doesn't invalidate your experience - certainly it makes things worse for some, better for (more) others. It just says that the average is an improvement.
So hard to get useful feedback from a child. I can just observe what I see and ask the teachers. The teachers were happy with 5mg but said that 15mg had no effect. Doesn't even make sense, so it was probably another factor playing in, such as a topic at school that he liked or not enough water / food during intake. The teachers even warned us to increase the dose unnecessarily, but with all information considered, the doc did it anyway, which made sense at the time.
I'll try a lower dose myself again so I can give more feedback to the doc, and we'll see if he needs something else. Pure sedation to make the teachers happy is not the goal here.
That is interesting! I'd expect that it is possible that neither helps with ADHD, but should still feel like a strong coffee at least.
Do you feel coffee when you had a coffee break of several weeks?
It is my understanding that stims have two effects:
They work a bit like a recreational stim in that they make you alert, awake (or calm, with some types of ADHD) and euphoric. This effect can very much help with symptoms, e. g. in a euphoric state, it's easy to get on a task. This effect fades over time, very much like caffeine or a recreational stimulant drug.
But they also regulate noradrenaline and dopamine in the prefrontal cortex in other ways which may not directly lead to a heightened state nor effect the vegetative system, but help with many ADHD symptoms. This effect does not fade, possibly not even a little bit!
For the patient, it's hard to distinguish, and a patient may even "mistake" the "recreational high" for all it does, but it's actually kind of a side effect. I believe that this is where the notion of "needing a break" comes from.
The docs & society kind of wants us only to have the 2nd therapeutic effect anyway, and they only grudgingly tolerate that we might also get the high for a while, because we are not supposed to have good things.
My hope is that with the end of Windows 10 coming up, laptops with 7th generation CPUs will become really cheap, such as ThinkPad P51 and P71. They are a decent budget choice < 1k USD/EUR already, but might drop way under 500 with top specs.
It's not like they are useless, but the market for Linux users should be satiated quickly once a selling panic sets in.
For most use cases, including backend development, they'll be good enough for many years to come. tbh, I'm still happy with my i5-2500 from 2011 and 16 GB RAM, and that is with local DB, application server, IDE and everything running locally.
I had the same experience. It felt like: This can't be legal!
Still does a bit after almost a year, but to a lesser degree.
Anyway, I suspect that this effect will fade, and that it's more like a side effect anyway, not the intended therapeutic effect. Although these might be hard to completely separate; the line is blurry.
I still have many symptoms, but two major things are completely fixed: Getting on a task just by thinking it, and sharp focus.
Already done, and it was found to be a side effect of the medication. Not a problem unmedicated.
Much of it sounds the same as me. I'm just 9 months ahead.
The effect of HOW it helps is a bit different for me, though.
I believe that especially initially, it gives a certain euphoria, similar to recreational stims like speed. And many patients feel like that is how it helps only, and that it stops working after a while. But what it is supposed to do, to regulate noradrenaline and dopamine in the prefrontal cortex, keeps working even after years - or so I've been told.
I think more focus should be put on how falling asleep was a primary symptom before. I can think of a couple of reasons: Comorbidity with something like narcolepsy, not enough sleep, or actual ADD symptom from sensory overload leading to tiredness or something. It will be hard to figure out whether Elvanse helps by keeping you awake, or if there is more to it. If it's the former, I believe it'll slowly fade over the next 6 months like high dose caffeine.
I did have the same problem before, but I realised I need naps. I have to work from home, because without my noon nap, things are bad. Often, I don't even realise I need a nap; I just get cranky like a baby. My thoughts end up in a bad place, everything sucks and is wrong. It's really a must for me. And I actually used to fall asleep at meetings or at my desk, no matter how bad it looked.
And I noticed that especially on Elvanse, I can't trust myself. I lie down and close my eyes when I SHOULD feel tired based on what I did, not when I actually feel tired. Stims make it much harder to feel tiredness, exhaustion or hunger, but it's super important to act as if I would feel it. This advice (from my doc) that was the biggest extra boost I got after getting the meds.
Oddly enough, I did use Modafinil, which is used against narcolepsy but also happens to work against ADHD, before I could get my hands on the good stuff.
So long story short, not sure if your situation is exactly the same, or very different. Chances are, I didn't quite figure out mine yet either.
At this point, even Microsoft wants them to stop using it, but they are stubborn and try to keep it running until they turn off the lights the hard way.
With the "wonderful" tooling at work, we use Skype for Business. Naturally, that is not the primary place to send around code and configs, but a 1-liner or 2-liner happens.
You can't believe the nonsense it does when you try to copy & paste it. Spaces get turned into non-breaking spaces etc. Looks completely normal when pasted directly into vim on a console, but will give "odd" error messages.
Nice one! I currently have to use Windows with putty as a desktop system for a client. And it's all very low-tech, so I have to check logs and do config on each node of a cluster separately, rather than using Logstash/Grafana and domain mode.
Pretty neat low-tech hack that MTPutty has: Enter a command that is sent to all open windows. Shouldn't be needed when things are set up properly most of the time, but I'll put it out there as a feature suggestion anyway.
I actually just quit caffeine entirely so I could fill up more of the good stuff from the doc before reaching that "jitter" threshold.
Clearly written. When someone tries to explain something to me, it's always useless. I can follow pretty complex instructions, but they have to start from the start, and they never do.
I feel like I'm good at that, rooting the conversation on a common understanding when I'm doing the explaining, but not sure anyone else needs this.
Engineered staple foods. Huel, "This is Food", Soylent etc.
Also pretty nice is a hot air fryer and a freezer. Grilled salmon right from the freezer, frozen vegetables with sauce included. Kind of a luxury dish, same effort as fries.