i guess i cant say i unferstand it to the level u do, but ur right for being mad. that the world has put you in this situation or anger at yourself for being sick in the first place,even though like, cognitively, it’s nobody’s fault that youre sick least of all yourself. i don’t know. i’m glad you posted here if you were looking for some sort of comfort or company or socialization, your situation is lonely and i’m sorry. i will really really look for that show on piracy sites if u cant afford it.