I have a weird obsession of death and like... I'm curious how many people would even attend my funeral, curious about what everyone actually thinks of me...

You know how in movies/tv, there's this cliche that people would somehow "feel bad" after someone kills themself. Like:

parents somehow crying and be like: "why didn't you just talked to us, we loved you so much!"

sibling be like: "maybe I should've been a better sibling"

or school bullies be like: "oh yea what we did was kinda fucked up, I feel so guilty"

or some bullshit.

I have a feeling that, IRL, nobody would care

like really, who the fuck wrote those cliche "people suddenly appreciate you after your death" tropes? like those directors really wanna make me kms lol?