Same.

I only really ever had two goals in life and I managed to fail them stupendously:

1)Not be the guy who’s miserable every day and doesn’t want to wake up to go to work.

2)To be in a loving relationship.

1 is making 2 even more difficult. On second thought it’s like an ouroboros, 1 makes 2 more difficult which compounds the misery of 1 lol