We’re in what I think of as the twilight of summer. This twilight happens midsummer when it is the hottest and the sun is shining the brightest. The shades are pulled down, the sunroom is closed and its doors covered. The inside of the house becomes twilight in the middle of the day to fight the summer heat.
This post is for casual conversation if you don’t feel like making a post of your own.
pharmacology diving thru adhd hyperfocus and autism obession, also finding good ways to solve problems with muscle shit(i still idk what name applies here, maybe dystonia or just neuroleptic syndrome), it seems get better when understand more the fcking loop, today i got pretty good feel, yesterday was shit, actually sensory overloads making me worse,
the mechanism which i think its, its just overdeveloped instinct due to trauma, and hyperstress periods (2024 comingout, and wrong hormone in my body), any light trigger brain process as danger, and activating body armoring and survelliance regime, actually the periods have increased sweating, and stress, and … increased sensory sentivity(warning loopback), more irritable, etc, also post forced-taked antipsychotic problem too so cptsd which from chemicals and from external pressure, the meds are useless, i tried muscle relaxants got tolerance very very fast, any other option have addiction potential and still tolerance risk, and risk of getting worse, since in short period of time in 2024 i got forced bumped 15+ different substances overall, which acts on CNS, but before 2024 i dont had any problems and maximum ibuprofen for headache
actually i have theory what could help longterm
parents are sooooooososososo annoying toxic assholes which inst cute at all, aaaaaaaaaaaaa its awful awful awful, making me nervous
other than this shit
enjoying new headphones, sososososo cool soooo perfect for sensory, also fun music
wanna cute catgirls around me aaaaaaaaaaaa