The purely rational side, knowing that “evil” doesn’t really exist and there is no such thing as free will so hating people doesn’t really make sense.
The bitterly angry side, despite knowing its irrational finding pleasurable catharsis in visceral hatred of a majority of people because they’ve demonstrated that in so far that its possible to deserve anything, they’ve demonstrated they deserve my hatred. And that relating to such people is incredibly difficult and that I cannot be honest with them in person about how I feel without becoming a pariah.
And finally, the despairingly lonely side seeking a life worth living, wanting to forgive them all for my own sanity’s sake. Not wanting to accept that I’m surrounded by awful and petulantly stupid people and constantly trying to find a reason to believe that I am not… and failing. To embrace this part would be delusion or hypocrisy and yet I really want to.
I am of three minds on this issue.
The purely rational side, knowing that “evil” doesn’t really exist and there is no such thing as free will so hating people doesn’t really make sense.
The bitterly angry side, despite knowing its irrational finding pleasurable catharsis in visceral hatred of a majority of people because they’ve demonstrated that in so far that its possible to deserve anything, they’ve demonstrated they deserve my hatred. And that relating to such people is incredibly difficult and that I cannot be honest with them in person about how I feel without becoming a pariah.
And finally, the despairingly lonely side seeking a life worth living, wanting to forgive them all for my own sanity’s sake. Not wanting to accept that I’m surrounded by awful and petulantly stupid people and constantly trying to find a reason to believe that I am not… and failing. To embrace this part would be delusion or hypocrisy and yet I really want to.