I’m the same, I always knew something was wrong but could never figure out what it was. I’m also bi and have ADHD, and didn’t really have the framework to understand any of what I was going through as a kid, so I ended up with like 5 layers of masking with my gender identity at the bottom. I didn’t realize I was trans until after I accepted my ADHD and got it diagnosed and medicated, accepted I’m bi despite my feelings towards men (messy complex negative feelings), accepted being autistic and really understood what autism is, and finally realized I’m trans on an acid trip in my 30s. There were so many times when, in hindsight, I know what I was feeling was gender dysphoria, but in the moment there was no way for me to identify it so I just felt like shit and didn’t know why. But yeah I barely remember my childhood outside a few major events and the general vibe. Part of me doesn’t want to remember.
I’m the same, I always knew something was wrong but could never figure out what it was. I’m also bi and have ADHD, and didn’t really have the framework to understand any of what I was going through as a kid, so I ended up with like 5 layers of masking with my gender identity at the bottom. I didn’t realize I was trans until after I accepted my ADHD and got it diagnosed and medicated, accepted I’m bi despite my feelings towards men (messy complex negative feelings), accepted being autistic and really understood what autism is, and finally realized I’m trans on an acid trip in my 30s. There were so many times when, in hindsight, I know what I was feeling was gender dysphoria, but in the moment there was no way for me to identify it so I just felt like shit and didn’t know why. But yeah I barely remember my childhood outside a few major events and the general vibe. Part of me doesn’t want to remember.
Are you me? Gosh it’s like I’m reading a comment I wrote and forgot about!