sexuality has nothing to do with whether youre trans or not. theres trans fems of every sexuality. im mostly a lesbian for example, which is a pretty common sexuality for us. people usually recommend the gender dysphoria bible for people who are questioning. it can be really helpful to explore to better understand yourself. one pretty big piece of evidence you can hold onto is most cis people never even think about being another gender, let alone consider whether they want to transition.

im sorry youre surrounded by mormons :/ it might make it pretty hard to transition if you decide its for you. since youre still young you might think about going to school out of state or in a large city just to have some space to work it out. it would also make it much easier to get hormones if you get on the school health insurance plan (if it has one).

im autistic too. some people think pretty much all trans people are, but thats a matter of some debate since tons of autistic people dont even know theyre autistic. regardless being autistic increases the likelihood of someone being trans in general.

in the end you could just try hormones and see how you feel about it. theres always a process to getting them, but seeing how you feel when youre on them can be a huge help figuring yourself out and accepting who you are. you can always stop. it takes months for permanent changes to really get going so youd have plenty of time to figure it out. being around mormons i assume youre in the usa, so probably the easiest and fastest way to get hormones is to go to planned parenthood. they use an informed consent model for gender affirming care, which basically means they wont try to gatekeep getting hormones behind psych evals and other bullshit. when i went i got prescribed and picked up my hormones the same day.

hope this helps. good luck on your gender exploration!

excellent question! the best answer i can give you is give up. normal human behavior is impossible to mimic. hope this helps! best of luck out there fellow meatbag!

i did. got prescribed estradiol valerate injections and progesterone on day 1. didnt start boofing it till a few months in, but ive been on it the whole time. if thats what you want go for it. being told to wait because of some made up bullshit is bullshit. you can check my post history to see how it has worked out for me. im happy at least :3

mmmm thats my favorite flavor. shame theyre not making it anymore. none of the off brands taste quite right.

well, fuck me…

i hope this entendre is sufficiently double

doing my best dressing in black jeans and a black hoodie to work my soul crushing office job :(

human brains use bang-bang control to control our body movement. all muscles are either on or off, with many individually actuateable groups of fibers per major muscle group. if youve ever lifted weights and started to shake on a hard lift, thats your body switching rapidly between different muscle fibers trying to complete the lift. body feedback takes more than 100 ms, which is way too long to do active feedback control on a lot of the really fast actions we do with our bodies, so for those our brain just does it open loop. it generates a sequence based on your intent and past training and just lets it rip, but we for sure can modify the sequence midway.

this is part of why humanoid robots look so uncanny when they move, they do continuous control which is fundamentally different from how we move our bodies. our brains have special pathways that process others body movements and what those robots do doesnt line up with how we know our bodies move so it looks wrong.

no :3

aww miisha 🫂 im sorry girl thats really rough. hopefully you can get your feet under you soon and gain some independence.

ive got something you would love

its really funny when they call us millennials boomer…

yes some of us are indeed :3

another cat might love it! i got this one from a friend who bought it for their cats who had zero interest lol.

what im getting from this is that the yellow hooide guy is somehow really hot to all of them and theyre trying to catch his eye to see if hes dtf.

if youre not boofing your leftism pills theyre not really even doing anything

all those negatives and it produces worse code more slowly than just having a person write it from scratch, while actively making them worse at it.

when you need to die to finally love your body…

yeah im a year in and i havent really noticed much strength loss. in some ways ive gotten stronger because of my exercise habits getting better and more consistent. i think the skin changes were much less pronounced for me because i have eds and my skin was relatively dry and very soft before hrt. it got softer but not by much.

usually its a social situation where a bunch of strangers are interacting for the first time so most people dont know each other yet. you give your name, you give your pronouns, maybe you say another thing about yourself prompted by whoever organized the event. its a way to introduce everyone quickly and it happens in a lot of different situations. but yeah its kind of uncomfortable if youre introverted or have social anxiety.

as a former chicagoan, take ketchup off that list right now i wont have it near a hotdog