it’s time change season so now my internal clock is completely fucked up

  • Megaman_EXE@beehaw.org
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    5 days ago

    I had my worldview change a bit today, which is a weird feeling! But I don’t really know what to do with this new perspective or what it means going forward.

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        3 days ago

        Sure, I apologize as it might sound a bit negative. I came to the realization that it is increasingly unlikely that I will be able to live the same way my parents did from their mid 20’s to 50’s.

        So I either need to reduce the amount of work I do, live a very simple life, and really try to milk as much out of life as I can.

        Or I just keep trying to “win” at the rat race. But I don’t have confidence in that. I think something clicked and really solidified the idea after watching this video (it’s long) https://youtu.be/9GumiLIxLMM

        In a way, this felt liberating because I have lived with a lot of guilt wondering why I am not good enough, smart enough, hard working enough. But it also made me realize I need to set my expectations in life even lower. That part I’m struggling with as I wanted to travel one day. Not sure if it’s possible. But maybe!

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          2 days ago

          That makes sense. I try my best not to have too many expectations for the future because you never know what life is going to throw at you, good or bad, and random chance can have a big impact on how things turn out. Having goals can be helpful, but it’s good to be realistic about what’s required to achieve those goals and what can potentially get in the way in order to decide if those goals are worth pursuing.