Im not gonna do it. If I didnt have a support network and family though, Id be feeling it.

struggling to cope with both micro and macro …sadness in humanity.

Im tired of coping today. Im crying every 15 mins.

I did go to my art therapy group this morning, and felt a little better. Only to come on here and see… what my country is doing.

Being human is a curse.

gonna go to my dr appt in a minute, and then make my favorite leek soup, or ask my husband to handle dinner so I can be a puddle on the floor.

Nearly 40 years on this earth. Today, feels like too much.

  • HubertManne@piefed.socialEnglish
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    2 months ago

    yeah I have a doctors appointment thursday but man its so meta. I can’t see the specialist I want to because of the way this country runs which feeds into a depression that im going to see a doctor about. Im not sure I want to take medication if they suggest it and my wife is worried about that and is against it. I completely get it to as I know medication for the brain can have bad effects cognitively and I am looking for work which depends on high congnitive ability. ugh. I feel a bit bad for you and others who are younger because im not sure any of you will have the perspective of better normal times. Whenever I say this people will point to all sorts of things bad with the time period but the thing is before reagan we generally were on an improvement journey which slowed under him to the point it stopped in the new millenium and started going backwards.