The gas pump swells as it finishes. If you try to drive off before it shrinks again, they just follow the miles of hose back to your house. Occam's Razor.
I would recommend looking for volunteer opportunities. Be open, what exists around you may not be exactly what you want to do, but it you're doing something positive, the journey will make it worth it.
Ooh, that smell Can't you smell that smell? Ooh, that smell The smell of death surrounds you...