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  • My first GP phonecall to get an in-person appointment resulted in a tiny piece of paper with suicide/help hotlines, and an ADHD form.
    I was worried about ADHD and Bipolar. I wasn’t myself. At all. It got pretty bad.

    After an in person appointment and me failing to fill in my form (edit: or not filling it in correctly, I guess?), a referral to a psychiatrist wasn’t justified and I heard no more.

    I eventually seeked private healthcare for this.
    And proper private healthcare, not that fucking “better health” or whatever that YouTube ad is. From actual doctors from an actual clinic.
    After a 1 hour consultation and £300, I felt listened to.
    The psychiatrist identified both ADHD and Bipolar traits, but said they were not significant enough compared to the depression. Treat the depression first, then circle back to the other possible issues.

    6 months on SNRIs, and I can’t believe the difference.
    I don’t feel like I’m struggling with memory loss. The traits I thought could be ADHD (hyperfocus sessions and yet easily distracted - exclusively) became manageable. The every day tasks suddenly were accomplishable. I haven’t tracked my mood very closely, but I’m either on a 2 month hypomania streak or this is actually just what I’m normally like and I can’t remember what feeling normal actually is. So maybe any bipolar I do have isn’t impacting my life so much.

    It took 6 months between the GP disappointment and seeking private care for it.
    It’s the best fucking £300 I’ve ever spent.
    The reason I got there, as opposed to accepting the GPs diagnosis, was a colleague talked about their experience. They talked about their depression, a failed visit to a GP, seeking a 2nd opinion, getting meds, and turning their life around.
    They said “don’t stop until you feel heard. Don’t stop until you agree with the doctor”.




  • Yeh, mental health issues are just health issues.
    It took me a while to realise that. A broken brain (whether Alzheimer’s, chronic depression or whatever) is just like a broken leg (or broken arm, or chronic back pain or whatever).

    You don’t ask someone with a broken leg or chronic back pain to help you move house.
    I guess it’s easier to tell when someone has a physical injury, which probably removes some of the stigma around talking about it.




  • towerful@programming.devtoTechnology@lemmy.worldMicrosoft Teams is dog shit
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    Excel is great.
    It does so much that people make it do what it shouldn’t, and never think to explore technologies beyond it… Like a proper fucking database.
    Then you get garbage business systems based on fragile excel sheets with bonkers macros and weird ETL pipelines to sync things.
    And never try to deal with dates and timezones.



  • I know a lot of FOH engineer that can design an array hang, dial in delays, do crazy sub array stuff, manage a Dante network, AND make a band sound good.
    They are quite comfortable as FOH, systems, monitors RF or even just a patch monkey.

    Just because a lot of people that call themselves sound engineers can’t do that, doesn’t mean nobody is a sound engineer.
    I get that engineer is a protected term, but the majority of those apply to disciplines that have been around for centuries not 70 decades.

    Original sound engineer would make their own kit. So they were probably electrical engineers, applying their knowledge to sound.

    Be an audio tech. That’s cool. I’d rather be on a gig with someone I consider a sound engineer tho.





  • It’s not difficult to define.
    It’s about people’s choices.

    People can choose to own a gun, choose to want to own a gun, choose to own a whole armoury.
    I think owning a gun is stupid. I live in a country that successfully regulates guns.
    Saying “I think gun owners are stupid” isn’t hate speech because they have chosen to own a gun.
    If I said “gun owners should use their guns in themselves” that becomes hate speech because it’s wishing harm on them.

    People choose to be Republicans, trumps choices in life are why he is where he is.
    Hate trump because of what he does, not because he has blonde hair.

    People don’t choose to be gay, or be trans, or be Jewish, or be black, or be short or whatever.
    Which is another way opinions can become hate speech.
    If I said “I think gun owners are stupid” that isn’t hate speech.
    If I said “I think black people are stupid” that becomes hate speech because it is grouping people by something they have no control over.





  • 4 years ago (best number I can find, considering IAs blog pages are down) IA used about 50 petabytes on servers that have 250 terabytes of storage and 2gbps network.
    From this, we can conclude that 1 TB of storage requires 8mbps of network speed.
    Let’s just say that average/all residential broadband has spare bandwidth for 8mbps symmetrical.
    We would need 50,000 volunteers to cover the absolute minimum.
    Probably 100k to 200k to have any sort of reliability, considering it’s all residential networking and commodity hardware.

    In the last 4 years, I imagine IA has increased their storage requirements significantly.
    And all of that would need to be coordinated, so some shards don’t get over-replicated