This may sound silly but by any chance do you use soaps and detergents with a lot of scent/perfume? Some people in my family used to get chronic headaches until they switched to scent-free stuff.
That's okay, the Dutch will just keep fracking their northern provinces and causing mini-earthquakes which severely damage the local residents housing. Then the government will gaslight them about it for decades and eventually half-apologize and offer insufficient compensation for their own citizens to rebuild. Another scandal swept under the rug by the oh-so-pragmatic Dutch government.
(I should have written this in a proper past tense because this already happened)
They did indeed, but despite the great optics of 100,000 people dressed in red shirts 'drawing a red line', it was in realty full of liberals (including several liberal party representatives who voted to send weapons to Israel) who were shouting down activists who tried to start chants of "free Palestine", "from the river to the sea", and other popular slogans we know.
After the march there were several photos of these red-shirted libs in Starbucks and McDonalds, both of which are on the BDS list and have been specifically targeted by activists. Dutch-leftist twitter and instagram has been abuzz about this and there have been quite some pictures, screenshots, critiques, and warnings about yet another anti-Zionist movement getting overrun and watered down by establishment liberals in the 11th hour after so much of their willful blindness.
Meanwhile every other pro-Palestine protest in NL is treated violently by the police, even today the day after the big fancy redshirt protest. To be clear I don't mean that as a dig against Nakba Day, but against the apparent average attendee. I do sincerely hope these libs start to wake up and actually speak up but this march yesterday was an "approved parade".
Please excuse the rant, it's been bothering me all day.
Hang in there comrade, and to comment similar to another here: for the love of all that is good please never ever ever consume synthetic cannabis again. It's really dangerous, doubly so for a person with PTSD. Spoken as myself some who also has PTSD and consumes real cannabis daily to help my own problems, the synthetic shit is 100% anti-theraputic. If I may kindly suggest, keep working out and staying active (and staying jacked apparently). And try to find some like minded kinfolk to keep you grounded in the real world. I know it's easier said than done, and I'm no perfect example. But I feel for you and hope you can figure it out. Hugs from NL
Ideally: Would try to heal from the current hell and go back to studying/writing/performing music but I feel like I'm too far damaged to really enjoy it without fear and anxiety that I should be doing something else. So then would try to focus on agronomic research and trying to implement sustainable agri/permaculture at large scale for staple items like grains and tree fruits, and at small/home scale for fresh greens and softer fruits. One can dream.
Most likely: Obsessively try to do everything to protect the revolution and die of a heart attack way too young. I guess I'm channeling my inner Lenin or something.
