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nixon

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  • What lyric has stood the test of time for you?

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  • “Despite all my rage I’m still just a rat in a cage”

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    “So, so you think you can tellHeaven from HellBlue skies from painCan you tell a green fieldFrom a cold steel rail?A smile from a veil?Do you think you could tell?Did they get you trade your heroes for ghosts?Hot ashes for trees?Hot air for a cool breeze?Cold comfort for change?Did you exchangeA walk on part in the warFor a lead role in a cage?How I wish, how I wish you were hereWe’re just two lost souls swimming in a fishbowlYear after yearRunning over the same old groundWhat have we foundThe same old fearsWish you were here”

  • It Turns Out That When Waymos Are Stumped, They Get Intervention From Workers in the Philippines

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  • I’ve ridden in a few Waymo’s before, in SF they can be more dependable or easier to get than other ride options. I never felt like I was ever in danger in one.

    Within my handful of experiences with them I’ve never had to use the help button or features to request assistance from a tele-operator but it was clear that they weren’t trying to hide the function from the passengers as the feature was explained and clearly labeled.

    A friend who uses them often told me of the one time he needed to ask for assistance when their Waymo was stuck behind a doordash scooter with its hazard lights on that was either delivering or picking up and blocking a turn lane in downtown SF. The Waymo didn’t know what to do to get around it, my friend hit the button for assistance, a voice came over the speakers asking how they could help, my friend explained the situation and the tele-operator drove the car to safely navigate the situation. He said it was probably 1.5-2mins of tota inconvenience with 75% of that time was him wondering if he should hit the help button or not.

    I understand a lot of AI implementation, such as Amazon Fresh or other business models have been hiding offshored human assistance within their “AI” features, which I do agree with you is deceitful but my experience with Waymo was not that. They did not hide or obfuscate that function and feature of the service but actively informed the passenger of its existence.

    Granted, I haven’t ridden in one for almost a year at this point and I only did so in the SF market so things may have changed since or are different elsewhere.

    Also, I can’t say that I follow the news intently about Waymo, I know they have run over a couple cats but I hadn’t heard anything about them killing people. Has that happened?

  • Melinda French Gates on Bill Gates in Epstein files - 'Painful times in my marriage'

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  • I think it is possible but just not probable.

    I’d like to believe that at least.

  • Many people have no mental imagery. What’s going on in their brains? - A Nature news feature on aphantasia

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  • Brown noise helps me stop random intrusions and provides calm and focus. I use the Star Trek TNG Enterprise D engine noise piped into my earbuds, headphones or home speakers.

    I go into a meditative state when it gets really bad, like pushing everything to the side and focus past it all.

    I’m 47, I don’t know how old you are but I’ve struggled with this throughout my life along with the other sensory stuff I have (emotion > color, Concept > shape, perceived emotion > color, mirror touch, texture > color/shape and a few other types of synesthesia). I have found that practicing to calm my mind, mute my senses and practice holistic balance in my life has greatly improved my quality of life.

    I do not know how debilitating this is for you but it greatly affected my life. Realizing that I cannot stop my mind or isolate myself and live a fulfilling life. I learned to acknowledge these things and live with them as a benefit. The best analogy is that I surf the waves of my thoughts and no longer let the waves crash over me. Or like emotional/mental aikido. Learn to turn it to your advantage and empower you instead of letting it overwhelm you. Figure out triggers, isolate them and understand them.

    Anyway, if you struggle with this you are not alone. There aren’t a ton of us out there but there are others. Don’t fight against it but learn to live in balance with it. When I did my life greatly improved. I have skills that no one else has and while people do not know what it comes from they can tell that my insightfulness, pattern recognition, logical decision making, memory and creativity are very different from the usual sort.

    Apologies if this comes off as preachy, you may have your thing on lock already but 7 out of 10 times the person who I am discussing this stuff with who has something similar doesn’t. I will always be learning new tricks or hidden features and I am always looking for tips from others I interact with in the wild.

    DM me whenever.

  • Many people have no mental imagery. What’s going on in their brains? - A Nature news feature on aphantasia

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  • I am the same way, it is a constant slideshow of vivid images, videos loops, complex shapes and colors projected into my vision. Whatever I am thinking about has these associations, like my brain works on complex hieroglyphs and not words. Which seems to be backed up by science as neurological studies into language processing show that metaphorical image/sensory association happens before language processing within our brains. Language is a translation layer after all the sensory input.

    I thought everyone was like this until my preteens when I would reference some aspect of it to others and get weird looks back.

  • Many people have no mental imagery. What’s going on in their brains? - A Nature news feature on aphantasia

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  • Sounds like it could be a form of ticker tape synesthesia with a less vivid variation of hyperphantasia.

  • Youve been brought back from the dead to participate in a competition that involves all of the world's greatest to ever have lived, what is the competition?

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  • According to lore anyone over 30 who is still a virgin becomes a wizard and that is why there are so few wizards about.

    So your competition would be a wizards battle. No offense but I’d buy tickets to that event.

  • Youve been brought back from the dead to participate in a competition that involves all of the world's greatest to ever have lived, what is the competition?

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  • This is an aside that is not really a response to your message.

    Most people assume that because something isn’t easy to make explode that it is also isn’t easy to turn it off.

    I’ve always assumed this isn’t true, that the two things are asymmetrical.

    If it was built by the military or some other professional outfit that makes explody things, and not hobbled together in a cave somewhere, then the people making it actually don’t want it to explode for the vast majority of that things existence. Bombs are designed to only explode under very specific circumstances and there should be many off switches to prevent it from accidentally exploding or to accommodate for people changing their mind after activating it.

    Like, you should need codes, special keys, synchronized activation switches and a countdown to make bombs blow up but I always assumed the designers of such things would build in so many failsafes that there would at least be a very prominent off switch that is clearly labeled on the outer shell… heck, there would probably be several depending on the size of the bomb.

    Anyway, I always imagined that if I was alone with an ICBM I could disarm it somewhat easily during the countdown. I’ve never really researched whether my assumption is right because I’ve never thought I’d ever actually find myself alone with one during a situation like that. I could be wrong 🤷‍♂️

  • Anyone Have Memories Of This Game?

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  • Heck yeah, I went to the launch party for it at the PlayStation Store in SF. They gave away these dog tag things.

    My friends and I played this game so much using the PS2 network adapter thingy before moving to the Xbox for Halo 2 over Xbox Live.

  • My friends are by my side

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  • Denethor's Despair

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  • As they say, “misery loves company.”

  • Denethor's Despair

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  • I like your take on hope. Doing your part hoping the rest of your battle group is doing theirs too.

    It relies on trust, which there is also too little of nowadays.

  • Narcissists, sociopaths, & psychopaths are incapable of feeling embarrassment, sorrow, shame, low self-esteem, remorse, compassion, regret.

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  • <raises hand>

    Hey, I actually have a collection of conditions that make it difficult for me to lie. I can but the way it affects my sensory conditions negatively influences my quality of life.

    I have various forms of projector type synesthesia (emotion>color, mediated/perceived emotion>color, mirror touch, texture>color, high production concept>shape) as well as hyperphantasia (strong projected visual memory), lvl1 AUD, ADHD and a few other things too.

    How this all comes together is I have a strong compulsion for justice, fairness and honesty and a feedback loop from my emotions and how I perceive others emotions that project colors into my vision. Each unique color maps to an Individual emotion, so sadness is a deep bluey/purple shadow whereas happiness is a limey red sparkle wave. When I am happy, that red colors my vision, or when I perceive others as happy they are overlaid with that color. Even individual reactions, like a smile on a sad person is projected. So if someone is bluey-purple but has a genuine smile then the limey red will highlight over their mouth while they are smiling.

    When I lie that affects the colors I see in my world view or how I perceive others. Colors greatly affect my mood and general outlook on life so if my world is colored from destructive or deceitful behavior then my quality of life is also greatly affected on a deeply personal level.

    What this results in is a person who tries to be blatantly honest in every aspect of my life. Honest, kind and fair are the colors I try to live within. Self sacrifice for others is my jam, to a fault. My perceived emotion>color kinda forces me to surround myself with caring, loving, honest and loyal people because the colors I perceive from others behavior and personality is always in my vision when I see or think of those people.

    It took me a long time to learn to live within it and not be crushed or overwhelmed. I use polarized sunglasses with colored lens anytime I am outside of a safe space where I am already comfortable with the colors, or in bright lights as they bother me. I have a hundred pairs of sunglasses on a rack in my bathroom that I chose from each day depending on what colors I need to filter the world in. This helps block or cloud negative color patterns in areas where I can’t control who or what I may be seeing. Every pair of sunglasses is unique in color, shape, size, frame and all those parameters go into what glasses I wear for that day. I plan my glasses choices based on what environments I may find myself in so I am constantly carrying various pairs with me. Even the colors, fabric and texture of the clothes I wear affect the colors I see cover everything I see in my vision.

    By managing my condition in this way I elevate my quality of life, mental health and outlook on the world.

    I am compelled to be helpful to others, I give a lot of my stuff away and do not horde money or expensive things. I try to live a humble, shy and introverted life.

    And Narcissist ARE my arch-nemesis. A bottomless pit of need that I am compelled to try to fill for them. They are my Achilles Heel but by the time I realize their true nature I am already too connected to go cold-turkey with them. Abandonment of the friendship/relationship feels like ripping off an appendage. It is the defining struggle of my life and it seems I am like a narcissist magnet. Like, seriously, I suspect it is a pheromone thing, or they just see an easy mark. I don’t know what it is really but I seem I draw them in like flies.

    Anyway, I saw your comment and was compelled to answer your call as I think I fit your “other end of the spectrum” comment in relation to narcissists.

    If you have any questions I’ll do my best to answer them for you.

  • Can you please explain the last joke you made that you're sure no one got?

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  • Btw, your figurines, and the framing/setting of the picture, are pretty rad.

    So you make these as a hobby?

    Are all of the models you make similar characters just in different settings/outfits/poses?

    What kind of printer do you use?

  • Can you please explain the last joke you made that you're sure no one got?

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  • This happened about 16 years ago.

    One of my buddies is a semi well-known photographer who was editing some photographs on his laptop while he was over at my place. One of the pictures he was editing showed the feet/toes of one of his subjects prominently, not the focus of the shot but they were easily visible. I knew he was going to post the picture to his socials once he was done as he did that for most of his shoots for marketing purposes so I joked, “I wonder if anyone would notice if you were to add an extra toe to that persons foot.”

    So he photoshopped an extra toe onto one of the subjects feet and posted it. There were many comments about the photo but no one has ever pointed out the sixth toe on the most forward foot of the subject.

    Every few years I check-in on that photo to see if anyone has said anything yet about it, still nothing. I do like/thumbs up that photo each time and then wait a week to remove my like/thumbs-up as an inside joke so he gets the notification from me on that photo as a notice that I am still keeping tabs on the outcome of my suggested joke.

    In response he does the same thing to a very old profile photo of myself that I hate on an old social account I no longer use but check in with every couple years.

    Him and I only get to catch up every several years when our paths cross but we communicate more through that thumbs/liking joke on those two photos more often, which is kinda fun.

  • Suspicious...

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  • I am not saying you are right or wrong but I am really excited to see if someone posts a link to a scrabble dictionary that has that word in it.

    I think it would be an exhaustive search to prove either way and I am way too exhausted to even try… but I am so hoping a person comes along that reads your comment and innately knows the exact scrabble dictionary that has that exact word in it and posts the link with proof.

    I love it when an incredible amount of coincidences come together and we all learn something.

    Low probability but I am here for it.

  • Nutritous and delicious

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  • Do they though?

    I guess this all loops back to the age old philosophical question scholars have never been able to settle, do bombs need pajamas?

  • YSK that Stanford scientists recently examined what happens when people stop using social media. They found deactivating Facebook and Instagram improved users' emotional well-being and happiness

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  • Yeah, those are the things I miss too. It feels like being a bit outside of a bubble looking in sometimes.

    And then those early days of Facebook, where it was actually useful and engaging, I miss those days too. But the world is a different place now and the slippery slope is too slippery for me to feel comfortable getting anywhere close to that slope.

  • Nutritous and delicious

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  • Bomb’s Pajamas sounds like a dangerous job for an item of clothing.