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Don’t use Voyager that often, but you’re currently +4

Diagnosed BIpolar 1, mostly depressive, but sometimes manic.

I am deathly afraid of the manic episodes that I’ve got some fear of “being too happy”. I’d rather deal with the lows (even the lowest of the low) because at least with those, I can trust myself to lack the energy to be destructive. I am fairly confident that in my lowest, I won’t even have the energy to commit suicide even if I want to.

Mania is a very different beast altogether. It might manifest on a spectrum from “just too wired up for sleep” to, in a couple of really badly unmanaged episodes, going off to an entirely different part of the country on a whim just because “who cares, I’m dying anyways?” Only through sheer luck did I manage to get home safe both times.

That said, honest self-awareness, honesty to the mental health professionals, and sticking to the treatment plan could make it manageable. It’s no guarantee, but it helps.

It also helps to manage expectations: the treatment won’t be on target especially on the first states, while the doctors adjust the medication and the dosage, deal with the side effects, etc. Some kind of faith in the process is necessary, I think–not blind trust, but trust that if you inform the doctors honestly any effects (side effects or not) to the best of your abilities, then the doctors can manage the condition better than if you think “I feel fine, the meds aren’t needed anymore!”

The treatment–the management of the condition is likely to last until the very end, and that’s fine.

About being in a relationship? It’s really up to the person and their partner: I wouldn’t trust myself to go on in a relationship without at least informing my partner about it–and keeping them up to date with “my mood weather report”. However it probably takes experience, a few cycles to get used to it.

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I tried Zen for a while during the peak of its hype, and it’s fine. It’s too “Apple” for my taste though, with limited UI customization. It’s opinionated, and I quite like the overall look, but it just felt off to me. It’s nice to look at, but a bit off to use.

Oh, the name and the icon are probably the only things I am actually displeased with in Floorp. I wanted to change the icon for my system too (or just use a more generic “firefox fork browser” logo for it to contrast with my ungoogled Chromium one–but I abandoned it after finding it troublesome (skill issue on my end).

But hey, beyond the icon and the iffy name, it fits my needs, so it stays.

I actually had this trajectory: Vanilla Firefox -> (manually) hardened Firefox -> Librewolf -> Floorp

I wasn’t actually displeased with Librewolf, but I found it a bit sparse when it comes to customization. I am aware that I’m trading customization with security when I made the last jump, but given my opsec situation, I don’t think I am being careless with switching to Floorp, and it has some decent security defaults, so I stuck with it.

Everyone else’s usecases may vary and even Floorp with its customization options isn’t for everyone. That’s the beauty of Firefox and its forks, if you ask me. There’s likely something for everyone–and for some, Firefox might be it.

No one mentioned Floorp yet, so I guess it’s on me.

It’s Firefox, but with more customization options right out of the box. I also have an ungoogled Chromium on standby for those sites unwilling to work well with Firefox (and forks).

EDIT:

Oh, it’s mentioned in the OP:

• Floorp: A random find from exploring Linux for the first time. I was running Pop!_OS and found it on the store. I’ve never experienced such a smooth Firefox fork before. It really is barebones, but has a lot of customization built in. Instead of the custom options piling on one another, most of them change how it works on a foundational level. The style of your UI and tabs, side tabs, fading URL bar buttons, and a lot more. At it’s core, Floorp is a stripped down and security first FF fork developed in Japan. I took the time to translate the TOS pages, and most of it is promising that there is no data collection. It’s fairly vetted and trusted from what I’ve researched.

I was thinking of those composite names too, like Juan Miguel Archangel (John Michael Archangel) but the person having such a name would just choose at most two and would introduce themselves as John, or Michael, or Miguel.

Is there any other community (in ani.social or elsewhere) that might welcome this?

Something along the lines of “world animation” or something like that, I suppose?

For some of the really prolific posters, yes. But there are also lurkers like me.

I doubt anyone can recognize me when I comment or encounter a comment I made.

I am curious about the reactions in the thread linked in the OP, but I can’t access it. I don’t know if the thread is deleted either since I can’t access even the server.

Are they temporarily down?

EDIT:

False alarm. I was able to access it after some struggle. I don’t know why I can’t access it in my desktop but I was able to access it via mobile. At any rate, it’s a problem on my end.

Reading the linked post, I’m glad to note that it seems to me that the consensus is largely against the change. Even the few comments from those in the instance is pretty much against it.

Oh, yeah, certainly! DLSR cameras back then were expensive, and I’m afraid I’d be made to pay for it if I ever break something.

Right now, they’re still kinda expensive for me, but not enough that I get paralyzed fearing any action might break something. 😅

EDIT:

I just did the conversion, and a DLSR at 50€ is kinda cheap indeed! Considering it’s like 500€ back then (well, brand new entry level because you’ve basically got no choice). I think I’m seeing like 1500€ DLSR cameras on display at shops tho, and I’m like “who has the money for these?!”

Thanks for this.

I remember being handed a DLSR (this was in the late 2000’s, early 2010’s) and I was too afraid to even do anything. I suppose if reassurance is given that no, things won’t be messed up, and it’s fine to make mistakes anyways, then it’d be great.

I suppose being intimidated by the tech and being overwhelmed by the information given to me is what prevented me from getting further.

I am just someone who is interested in photography, but haven’t really embarked on that journey, so please take what I say with a grain of salt.

She having her own camera to use would give her the freedom to take photos of the subjects she finds interest in. She could very well spot something, take out the camera, and take a quick shot. Because of this, I think having a very simple one (just a point-and-shoot) would suffice. One of the things that intimidated me about the hobby is the amount of technical stuff that I encountered, including, but not limited to:

• framing techniques
• usage of lighting
• shutter speed, ISO, and how they affect how the image is formed
• post-processing: image formats, usage of image editing/photo editing software

I appreciate the people who shared me this knowledge, but truth be told, it’s only the framing techniques that I was able to practice. That’s on me, of course.

I suppose it’d be great to introduce her to these concepts one-by-one, and giving her the freedom to pursue their interests (in what to take pictures of). Maybe she’d be more interested in macro photography, or landscapes, or portraits. I suppose there are techniques that work better in one area than another.

I suggest getting her a more proper camera after she’s expressed interest in going further would be a good idea.

Again, not any photographer, not even a hobbyist. Just someone who is interested in the hobby, and had several people share their knowledge.

PS:

Just as an afterthought. Since I suggested that she use the simplest “point-and-click” camera, wouldn’t a cellphone camera suffice? IDK.

This! The only time I had my bard perform (use performance) is when I was trying to solicit help from someone, but telling the plain truth (as my character has been doing so far) would put the party at risk, so I told the DM:

I will tell the story as if it were an epic tale told across generations of bards. Can I use performance for this?

The DM allowed it. I rolled the die and got a fairly high roll. The person I was asking help from was so moved they swore they’d help the party with the utmost of their abilities.

Besides, the DM has just told the table the same story (targeted to my character, but the rest of the table had a listen), and it’s just annoying hearing me recite that same story they just heard from the DM (who is far better than me at telling stories).

The only time I acted out in character (in the main story in that campaign, and that other time was debatable, as it’s more of a caricature than in-character) was in a fairly impromptu scene between me and another character. The rest of the table, including the DM, was just too shocked at the impromptu act. In hindsight, it played out like one of those romcom anime scenes. And I came out of it all: “wtf was that?!”

We’ve had a Color Coding Scheme here for years, and no one bats an eyelid at those words even though it could be horrifying for someone in the US.

!Conclave2025@lemm.ee for an instance-agnostic link.

I always found the Gilgamesh -> Holy War conversion far more useful for the Omega Weapon fight, especially if the fight is over before I even manage to use half of the 10 items the conversion gives me.

With a low enough level, and a powerful enough junction setup, every single fight (even the final boss fight) is complete child’s play. Too bad I didn’t already know that on my first playthrough.

I’ve never fished at all, but I’ve seen some people do some sort of fishing (with a fishing pole) along the coast. I haven’t really stayed long to observe what they do, but I saw that it involves a lot of waiting, and I feel increasingly awkward watching a guy do some fishing so I left. It might be that the spot that guy chose (or the area in general) just doesn’t have enough fish, being in the city and all. That, and pop culture (including some anime) characterizing fishing as needing patience and the capacity of being incredibly still while being capable of incredibly fast movements. Like a ninja meditating, only to do intensely quick movements to pull in the fish even before it had the chance to react.

Thanks for clarifying the misconceptions I had. I’ll look forward to having an opportunity to do some lure and fly fishing.

I can’t really explain it, but it is akin to tuning it out. Basically ignoring it as it it were tinnitus.

Of course it can only be done if you can afford not to engage it (or engage in it such that you can fake engaging in it). IDK, it’s really hard to explain.