I'm sorry to hear that, for me it's like enough of a weight has been lifted, I'm able to see, feel, or explore things I haven't noticed before. If this is a reduced "up" it's till better than things were before
This was an interesting read and almost made me subscribe.... And then I saw the rest was "the worst pedophile" "serial killer" "possible cannibal" aaaand I'll just nope myself out of here.