I got my diagnosis today. Like I always feard, I have endometriosis and according to the images, it's really bad. It's not like I didn't know that already, but having the diagnosis doesn't give me any vindication. The biggest issue is that they told me that I will need to use hormonal therapy if they're going to treat me, which means estrogen blockers or the pill. Having taken both before, I honestly think I'll just stick with living in constant pain. The pain is excruciating and debilitates me for roughly a week each month, but knowing how I react to hormonal supplenents and blockers, I think I'd rather keep eating painkillers.
It just makes me so fucking sad and hopeless. A hysterectomy is off the table as well, as I'm "too young" (sexist bullshit argument) and it apparently has too many side effects (the pill doesn't tho lmao).
First things first, you are unique, but not simply because of your neurodiversity. Everyone is unique, and so are you. As to your suffering, I am sorry you are struggling so much. What I can tell you is that I've spoken to a handful of people who are severely restricted through their disability, and they told me that at some point, it is easier to just pretend to be happy than to give into the suffering. At some point, at least for some of them, the happiness was no longer play-pretend. Just like how smiling more can make you happier through simple body chemistry.
I can't tell you if they just wanted to console me, but I can tell you that I share your outlook. It does seem like this to me too most of the time, and I always struggle with that feeling. You are not alone, and I appreciate you sharing that feeling with us. Makes me feel a little bit more seen too
Oh no :( Reminds me of some coping mechanisms that helped when things were dire but aren't helping if you're trying to heal. This is a tough spot to be in
I really hope you can get out of this triggering situation soon, it's a nightmare to live in constant fear of these triggers and be eternally on edge. Even if it's not much, I'm with you in spirit.
That is unfortunately very likely :/ British class bias is fucked up, and I wouldn't be surprised if that was playing into the poor treatment you received. The solution shouldn't be that you try to change how you speak, though. You deserve fair treatment, no matter where you're from or what accent/dialect you are speaking.
I'm getting violent flashbacks to some of these clouds I walked into, and I don't even get headaches or migraines from it. Sorry you had so many reeky people around you, I hope you won't encounter any more anytime soon
I understand that, it sounds like there's so much more to say but no real way of making it happen. I don't know how many people you have that you can be very candid with, but maybe try and pick one of them and tell them about this feeling of "wanting to say more". From personal experience, I think practicing with individual people you trust helps a lot to figure out the how and what you want to say. That said, sometimes the best way to make a conversation go longer is to let silence linger. Not forever, mind you, but sometimes it really helps to stay quiet in a conversation, and your brain will eventually come up with something to say. You can always take it from there too. Hope some of this helps <3
America seems to want a lot of people dead, but as a state, it always has wanted people dead for profit. I'm sorry you're suffering from it as well. Know that we appreciate you here and are glad that you're around
I know, but I'd rather make sure nobody can connect you to your hexbear account. And as this is not state election stuff, it might actually be easier to trace it back to you. Just trying to look out for you <3
Thank you sweetie