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durings [none/use name]

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  • not weird at all, and honestly applicable to most rights movements. i think it points at the bigger problem which is that it's a very small minority that is actively considering and dreaming of a world where we ALL can live with each other in an equitable way, heal, and thrive.. most people just don't have that intentionality whether or not the movement originates from a valid place of discrimination or fear of safety. most people are concerned about them and theirs, and for most "theirs" does not mean general humanity or even animals/other living creatures for that matter. doesn't mean i won't support the movement-- i am just cautious because there's always the racist feminist, the transphobic immigrant advocate, the corporate anti-zionist, the animal slaughtering peace activist, etc

  • extremely telling that reddit is always full of cherry picked isolated incidents of muslims doing "barbaric" things that get thousands of upvotes but not a single post in sight of this mass assault by a white christian terrorist

  • sometimes it's hard for me to empathize with people that have "lost" something like loved ones or a proper home or career, because I never had any of those things to begin with, my whole life has felt transitory, temporary, disposable, and unbelonged. it feels wrong and toxic a lot of the time for me to feel that way, and i would never go around throwing it in peoples face who are dealing with loss, but that's just what i struggle with internally. i just find myself daydreaming about what it would be like to even have something to miss.

  • good on them, wish more musicians had the guts to follow suit. i've been so disgusted by how "default" spotify has become when it comes to distribution and music discovery...

  • why do so many people get away with being so vocally "pro-Palestinian" and "anti-genocide" but you work at IBM/Microsoft/PwC/insert other company that directly contributes to the genocide ??? how are you so SHAMELESS?

  • what's your recipe? do you use a pressure cooker

  • !!! massive

  • had a really sad dream where i remembered the last time someone told me i was important to them and that was more than 6 years ago :\ heavy heart. and even that ended up being untrue

    there's no way life is supposed to be like this; why is everyone seemingly okay with surface level connections and not questioning anything about the way we live and treat each other

  • idk as someone who worked multiple jobs with kids the "stare" usually means you as an adult are not engaging enough

    also seen plenty of millenials genX and boomers do this same "stare" when you say something they don't want to comprehend

  • yeah honestly i don't find it any different from people who become cops because they think they're one of the good ones who will change the system. acknowledging any level of legitimacy of the illegal amerikkkan occupation and engaging within its systems in any fashion will never ever lead to revolution, and americans have their heads so far up their asses they really think that electing the right trendy people is "progress"

  • colonialism is when red percentage numbers and dark colors

    now lets make one of indigenous populations on turtle island

  • having a really hard time coping with loneliness and facing the facts that people would rather be friends with people who are agreeable, passive, and "easy to digest" at best, and literal SAers and fascists at worse, over me. they may even complain about these "friendships" to me and then continue to invest more time in them.

    hard to trust peoples words at all anymore. i don't want to live like this. maybe it's actually a blessing that i have no attachments to this place community wise

  • ibrahim traore thank you for inspiring me when no one else does

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  • personally, i find it hard to care for myself when i'm not being cared for from others. not that i need someone all the time (very used to the solitude atp); it just makes me feel like "what's the point?", like the tree in the forest thing, why does it matter if i'm in shape or taking care of my hygiene or improving as a person if no one is there to even notice or acknowledge it?

    i used to believe in the "do it for yourself" mentality but that's the same mentality that led to me being completely isolated. these days i've built enough resilience to continue healthy habits and take care of myself more than i used to, mainly out of spite, and i try to consider my life experience and body/mind/soul just part of my life 'experiment' that i'll see through to the end just so i can have a good laugh about it before it's all over.

  • and when you realize it's poisoned and that if you keep drinking it you'll only get sicker, you are ostracized for questioning the source, people feel insulted because they'd rather keep drinking the poisoned water because that's what they're used to doing and everyone else does it and now you're forced to find a clean well somewhere else instead of just banding together and cleaning out the well you already have.

  • well, after months of deliberation i finally bought a one way ticket to portugal and planning to slowly make my way from there to either asia or africa. still have a day to chicken out and refund but i mean i've been desperately searching for a reason to not just up and leave the country, the bar has been barely above the ground, and still haven't found even one reason so doubt anything will change in the next day.

    i'm not necessarily looking forward to it, still trying to get past the "i wish things were different" mentality. just seems like the only thing left to do besides succumbing to hopelessness. i'm hoping the journey will alleviate my misanthropic thoughts and lead to finding my people, but i know it's best to not have any expectations. i'm also worried about what happens when i run out of the very little money i do have or potential prejudice especially in europe but fuck it i want to do less thinking and more action

    the only thing i will miss is my computer. still thinking if i should even bring a laptop since i plan to mostly camp

  • aw this made me so sad to read and i relate entirely too well i genuinely feel like peoples approach/philosophies around friendship and community in the west is so poisoned and perversed. it feels hard to keep trying when you keep being willing to meet people beyond halfway and even that doesn't get reciprocated in the way its deserved, and yet all the shittiest people i know are surrounded by many many friends and endorsed and accepted by the people around them. like it's not your or my fault but it still fucking sucks