That game was my first OG Xbox game. After having been introduced to it by a friend, I bought the console solely to play it. Almost screwed up highschool because of it.
Anyway, I find myself completely unable to replay it, even after having modded it hardcore. That's why I have that blind a faith in the TESR project.
I was gifted one of these 5 years moomin journals by my SO and started it in January this year. I had never kept a daily log ever before. I used to write regularly but never on a fix schedule. It's a lot of discipline and work!
Funny how you can SOUND like a person who doesn't wash his own underpants. And a white male in his late 30's. And a high-performer but on a razor narrow and specificaly capitalistic set of criteria.
I just very recently discovered that bitwarden (vaultwarden) has this perfect feature like a "trusted contact" (not sure) where you can choose a person that can request access to your password vault, and if you DON'T answer in X days (configurable), they get access.
Thinking back on your rhetorical question, I think it's just it.
It's the goal. The goal was always to try and make me think that I am not just simply taking care of my stuff (and by extension myself). Because taking care (of yourself) isn't valorized in a capitalist society.
Fuck it all. I'm putting YEARS of work into just sorting myself out.
Cheers. I have pruned my avocado again this week. Quite heavily this time, actualy. How's yours doing? Did it branch?!