Okay so it's my personal experience on this and it's going to be completely different for everyone. I don't identify with being a man. So I started transitioning to be more feminine. But I am in an awkward spot where to make sure I am not identified as a man I have to be clearly feminine.

Okay how do I make it more clear. Basically it's hard to be on the midway point between masc and fem for someone AMAB (I speak for my own experience it could be as hard for AFAB but I don't know) as you are more likely to be identified as your birth gender. Which can push people to force themselves in a gender identity that is more tolerable than their birth gender (here, woman), but isn't their actual gender either.