I don't know your mother but I doubt she would actually do that to you. My mom said she'd put me up for adoption when I was a teenager. The bitch lied. Definitely a shitty thing to tell your kid in both cases. For context, about how old are you if I may ask? I have lots of trauma related to my upbringing and I'm guessing you do too. I hate to be the "you should go to therapy guy" but it couldn't hurt. It helped me out a lot. Also, the brain thingy wouldn't he effective in changing your behavior anyway, not that I believe it's something you need to worry about. Still curious if you have OCD? Do you hyper fixate on random intrusive thoughts often?